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2008-10-15T18:13:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL!!
I'VE SHIFTED TO www.suerattles.wordpress.com!! =)=)

2008-10-13T01:06:00.002+08:00

there's only YOU in my eyes

2008-10-10T21:33:00.001+08:00

am i hard to please,
or am i simply expecting too much.

2008-10-08T21:59:00.002+08:00

just came back from a cyling session not too long ago!
i cycled and wei cheng jogged (all thanks to his bycicle which he had brought to hall)! gosh. he is so fast. he jogs almost at the same pace as my cycling and still had the energy to chit-chat with me at the same time! he's seriously one of the faster runners i've met.
anyhow, it was quite fun and impromptu. we cycled/jogged to west coast park, paused a short while at the bank(of the sea), caught up a little, and went one more round in the park before heading back to hall. my my, he really has the stamina.
yay yay! i can now cycle with him rather than jog and slow down his pace by like a thousand times next time =)

homesick

2008-10-05T19:06:00.002+08:00

baby fetched me home after band yesterday night (which was about 11+pm) and by the time i reached home, daddy and mummy were already sleeping. by the time i woke up the next morning(10.45am), daddy's back to work, mummy gym. and here i am back in hall after church.
i miss mummy and daddy so so much =(=(

2008-10-04T13:05:00.004+08:00

went to watch eagle's eye with baby yesterday!
was quite funny cuz we were already late for the show and still went to buy ben & jerry's mix and match! hahas! our all time favourite - chunky monkey, chocolate fudge brownie, strawberry cheesecake smeared with hot fudge and peanuts topping!
and so we sneaked the ice-cream in using a carrefour plastic bag. think i spent the first 20 min of the show trying to eat the ice-cream making sure that i didn't drip any on my clothes, then we found out that baby spilled some on his white shirt(lousy him, hahs!) and spent the next 10min trying to clean it away using wet tissue(no, not the one you're thinking of, it's water poured on dry tissue). hahas, was quite funny actually. and we ended not really understanding the show. but i guess if we had paid attention, it shouldn't be a bad show.
anyhow, while we were queuing for bubble tea after dinner(before the show), a girl in the queue(just in front of us) was wearing exactly the same top(i bought it online and it was exclusive to that online shop so i guess she should have bought it from there too) as me!!! gosh, ultimate embarrassment. baby noticed too and stood in front of me so that hopefully she hadn't too noticed. gosh, gosh, gosh.
maybe that's the thing about buying things online, that they might be seen more frequently on the streets- because they are cheaper and people are more willing to buy them in comparison to say a top from topshop.
okay, so i'm still stuck in hall today. yes, today's a saturday and i should be out shopping with mummy or dating with baby. but all thanks to band (which starts at 7.30pm!! why can't they start like earlier =( ) i'm stuck in school.
anyhow, i went gymming with zhiying for 3 consecutive days! baby keeps asking me not to or i'll be more manly and muscular than him =X (hello baby, your arms are like so much harder and larger then mine) but it was fun! hahs! love hanging out with her, screaming with her, talking to her. and she's like 10 times fitter than me, think my arms are but a slump of fats. =X
and it's me rattling on and on for being stuck in school on a saturday. SIANESS.
baby's accompanying me to church tomorrow, yay!! =)=)
i love him accompanying me to church. it feels more wholesome somehow, that i could hold his hands during sermon, pray for him when i'd like to(it's not that i can't do that outside church, but it's kinda different) and the most important thing, he keeps me awake during sermon by replying my scribblings on paper on and off. hahas, i've got a wonderful baby - my pillow, my bolster, my butler, my baker, my cook, my fish-tank cleaner, my radio, my chauffeur, ETC.
what can i do without him.

leaving on a jetplane

2008-09-30T23:08:00.003+08:00

we've got tickets to bangkok!! =D =D
yay yay!!!! at least i've got something to look forward to after the exams!
7 days, 6 nights and we are each going to plan 2 days itinery =)
i've thought/asked/searched for many things to do already!!
egggcitedd!!!!
prices of tickets were not bad(i hope) and so we're travelling on jetstar!
can't wait!!
i've gotta start saving money to shop shop shop!!!

2008-09-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

*sings*
sue lynn's going to bangkok!!!!! =D

2008-09-29T13:03:00.002+08:00

oh gosh, i'm missing him so so much.
maybe it isn't all so good to fall in love.
it takes up almost all of your time, that you don't wanna do anything else, but just spending every second thinking of him, and only him.
i havent been like that before, so why am i like that now?
maybe this is how true love's like, it takes you deeper than you know and traps you there with a lock without keys.

2008-09-29T02:20:00.002+08:00

sigh. recess week's over.
sigh. i havent started studying yet.
sigh. i'm in no mood to study.
sigh. i can't see him till friday(i hope).
sigh. i'm disgustingly obese.
sigh. my room's in a terrible mess.
sigh. my clock's spoilt.
sigh. i can't fall asleep.

sigh, sigh, sigh, sigh.

love is indeed more than just a game for two.

2008-09-27T16:54:00.003+08:00

so what have i been doing?

wed : baby had a medical appointment and so i accompanied him there in the morning before we came back to hall. he waited for my badminton to end and we headed to vivo for dinner. bought face mask + 20+ dollars worth of manicure products at the face shop and we.......

face masked when we were back at hall! hahas.. was quite funny! okay, i know the picture's super unglam. =X

thurs : baby went to bake cheesecake for his mum's friend after work, after which, we headed to amk's cathay to catch my bestfriend's girl. wasn't very good.

friday : went wala with the girls! unfortunately many couldn't make it last minute.. oh well, zhi ying and i still had loads of fun! the band was good, good, good! we sang so loudly with everyone else like nobody's business! ahhas.. lets head there again okayyy? after which, baby came to send me home. such a sweetheart isn't he?

today : went vivo with mummy to buy some stuffs, then daddy picked us up at serangoon mrt for lunch. daddy then told me a secret, *baby, you'll be supper happy to know this* that mummy likes jiayi, she thinks that he's those kind of guy who knows how to take care of his family.. hahas!

anyhow, tomorrow's gonna be our 9th month.. time passes so terribly fast and these 9 months with him had been the most wonderful. some couples see each other for consecutive days and get sick of each other. i on the other hand saw him for almost everyday(of this week) and can't get enough of him.

baby, i know i've said this many times, but still, you're the bestest boyfriend ever.

i love you baby!!

how great, is his love

2008-09-23T10:02:00.003+08:00

yesterday, i sobbed in baby's arms.
not because i was sad, not because he did anything wrong, but because i closed my eyes for a minute and appreciated that god was good to me.
he was good to me all along, just that i didn't sit back and come to realise, of how wonderful my life has been.
i couldn't ask for more, really.

there i laid in his arms
eyes threatening to close.
once it does,
he goes with the wind
so quietly,
without a trace.
i enter a world of just both of us
my heart begins to sing,
when it opens i'm all alone
missing him again.

2008-09-20T14:00:00.003+08:00

it's............................
RECESS WEEEEEK!!!!!! =D=D

unfortunately, i've got quite a number of project meetings during that already so short recess week =(
anyhow.. i still love breaks, that i don't have to attend lectures(okay, as if i always do =X), do tutorials (esp for 2100 when i don't understand a single thing), fret over what to wear =S .
and the most important thing? i get to catch up on teevee!! =D

okay, i know i sound super slack, i know, i know, it's time to buck up.

oh, and sidetracking a little, why do people have to put music on their blog? okay, yes i know it isn't a bad thing, but esp for music that starts with some kinda "boom!" to it, it never fails to give me an initial shock. it's like, i key the url of a certain blog and click enter (all done in the peace quietness of my room) and suddenly, "loud clashing of cymbals/super loud bass/singer starts singing loudly etc)". it NEVER fails to make me "jump-up" a little. maybe the blog should have a warning sign to warn readers that loud/rock music's gonna start like anytime when the page's loading =S seriously, i wouldn't mind if it's slower music. okay, i guess little things like these kinda irritates me, but still, i prefer to read blogs without music.

mummy's out, daddy's working, bro's out, chow's out, grandma's sleeping, i'm home =(
no pow sing chicken rice for me =(

2008-09-19T00:23:00.006+08:00

goodness!!! i'm so dead!! meeting just ended =(=( i'm so gonna be dead.
anyway, till now(i know it's kinda early, but) dnd comm's pretty eggciting!! glad to be in it, the people are fun, the job's fun... yay!! at least i'm enjoying what i'm doing =D

oh, and i forgot to mention that the female guppies in my tank gave birth! i so adore the teeny weneny baby guppies hidding/swimming/getting out of the bigger fishes' way in the fish tank! i can spend an hour of just looking at them! love them to bits, lets hope they do survive till their fins grow beautifully and continue to multiply in my little tank!

anyhow, thank you dave for buying me bubble tea at this hour. =)

10%, and i'll get a present!! =)=)
anything, just anything from you and my heart smiles =)

EMBARRASSING!!!

2008-09-17T18:11:00.002+08:00

today was ultimate unglamness plus embarrassment =X
can you believe it? i actually wore two different, unmatching slippers out!!! and i only noticed when i reached harbourfront mrt(heading towards baby's house) =(=(
baby's stomach was uneasy and he took an mc for today =(=( so i went to his house to bring him porridge and his mum and two sisters saw that i wore the unmatching slippers!!!! (obviously since they can see the two so unlikely and out of the blue slippers at their front door =S)
oh gosh. kill me please. they must be thinking : how can someone be THAT blur =(=(
this is the 2nd time already! the other time was.. either yesterday or the day before BUT i noticed the difference in slippers before i stepped into the lift on my way out of hall, so i could still go back to my room to change..
i think i should keep more slippers in the show cabinet already, or either way, look at my toes before leaving hall.
oh no. EMBARRASSING!!!! =(=(

2008-09-14T10:25:00.003+08:00

yay yay he's coming home todayyyyy =)=)
yesterday our family(complete with mummy, daddy, carmen, me, kor, catherine(his gf) and mama) went to beng hiang restaurant(serves hokkien fare) to celebrate mummy and daddy's 27th yr wedding anniversary! =D after which, we headed to dempsey for ben and jerry's!! and.. as there was someone performing that night, carmen and i made a dedication specially for mummy and daddy =)
i love my family to bits and pieces, and i like how kor and catherine bickers.. they're so cute!! hahahahs.. okay, for those of you who knows my brother, maybe cute ain't very suitable.. but... they are!!
catherine complains how he(kor) always wears the same shirt when meeting her, how his shirt turns yellowish overtime and he still wears it anyhow etc.
super funny! kept chow and i laughing at the behind most seats most of the time while daddy's driving!
and chow and i figured that there won't be enough space in daddy's car for everyone to sit if there's a FULL (daddy, mummy, mama, kor, catherine, carmen, zhao liang, me, baby) family gathering. so verdict : zhao liang's gotta sit on baby's legs =X hahahhas!
actually daddy wanted to invite everyone..but baby's in KL and zhao liang can only book out at night.. so.. another time then! but i'm sure it'll be nice =)
can't wait for the night to commme!! =D

3rd

2008-09-12T22:51:00.006+08:00

i had nothing to do at home and so there i was surfing the net and...........................................
i fell in love with these..

they're so really pretty arent they? from tiffany and co. both comes in 2 colours, rose gold and silver.. and so i started bugging mummy to start saving up for my 21st! hahahahhas!

okay, this is my 3rd post for the day, so u can see how bored i am =X

baby quick come back and take me out pleaseeeee

2008-09-12T18:18:00.001+08:00

我今天收到了一封情书 =)=)=)=)=)

fishie

2008-09-12T11:38:00.003+08:00

the boy's in kl and i miss him =(

anyway.. the week seems to have passed so fast!! even faster than the previous sem..
maybe it's because my day starts late. a usual day starts at an average of 11/12pm.. which means, i wake up at 10+am everday except 1 day and sometimes even 11+am. it's so fast it becomes scary that i havent been up to date on my lectures and tutorials and pam! it's exams time. SIGH.

hall's been pretty okay.. joining two activities this sem only because i had joined 2 committees during the hols. may consider joining one sport (which makes it 3 this sem) just to make sure i won't get fat to obese =S

oh!!!

my fish tank had an increase in population!! =)=)

there are now....

6 guppies ( 4 female, 2 male) - pray hard that the female ones get pregnant( ceying added 2 females to my collection as he claims that female to male ratio should be 3:1 =) )!! i would love to see tha baby guppies popping out =X

11 neon tetras - (bought 6(for a dollar only!!), baby surprised me with 3, and ceying bought me 2)

3 triangle fish(baby calls it so) - it swims super fast, and mean really super fast that some times i'm afraid it would leap out the tank =S

2.. shit eater fish? - ce ying bought them for me too!! =)=) now there aren't that much shit lying at the bottom of the tank

now my fish tank's more complete =) and i love looking at the fishes.. seeing them swim, eat etc. hopefully the fishes won't die anytime soon! i don't really like scooping the dead fishes out =X and, i hope the plants won't die so soon too!! they make the tank prettier =) okayy, the pictures don't do the fish tank justice,it's really much nicer in real life, witht the lights on and everything.. so shearites, you can drop by my room to see my nice nice fish tank!! =)
okay, i shall end here. time to go home soooon! =)=)=)

2008-09-08T11:00:00.002+08:00

on sat, mummy, aunty jo and i headed to..... grand hyatt's high tea at the scotts lounge! =)=)
yes, 2 high teas in a week! i'm so getting obese =(
anyhow.. high tea was great!! the ambience, the food.. what more could i ask for?
*please pardon the not so nice pictures.. i used my hp camera as the camera at home wasn't charged and i couldn't find the charger =X)my soft spot : desserts.
there were... macaroons, brownies (so good as usual), my favourite strawberry cheesecake(a must have), green tea with red bean cake etc.
every piece of dessert was an art, and made by some very well known chef/baker there was this dessert called a flambé which was absolutely good i tell you. it was made on the spot, whereby crepe was soaped in some sauce then alcohol was poured in it(you could tell them how much alcohol you wanted in). when that was done, flames soared. an awesome sight=). then topped with a scoop of fresh vanilla ice-cream with orange fruit and peel. i had 2 servings of them!
there was this cold dish of prawns and squid with thai sauce. the prawns so simply so fresh and crunchy, mixed with the slightly spicy and sour thai sauce, delicious.
then there was beef, sushi, sandwhiches, carrot soup(just to name a few) which were really good as well! not forgetting the chocolate fondue with freshly sliced fruits, cookies and marshmellows to complement. the good thing was, we get to sit there from 2-6pm(they'll start clearing at 5pm though) and eat slowly, chat, relax, people watch. moreover, they serve drinks(included in the high tea) like coffee, hot chocolate(my all time favourite), mocha, latte and so on, and many assorted flavours of tea. and people get food in a relaxed pace where food doesn't run out(as in the trays weren't at any point empty) as many other buffets experience.
service was great too, except that the waiters didn't clear our plates readily =X
anyhow... it was simply great =)

at night, dave and i went to catch 4bia. it contains 4 short stories and it was so scary i tell you(the only comforting thing is that the 3rd story was a little humourous)! and dave managed to keep his eyes on the screen for majority of the time, while i hid under his jacket =X
he says it's by far the scariest movie he's seen. so.... catch it if you dare!

on sunday, baby accompanied me to church then i had dinner with mummy, daddy and chow at new york new york in amk hub - i think we're like regulars there now =S
after which, baby came over to send chow n i back to hall, with the fish tank! =) hopefully the fishes doesn't die anytime soon, else i wouldn't know what to do with them =X

baby's going to KL this weekend with his friends, i'm so gonna miss him =(

high tea at carousel

2008-09-05T23:36:00.003+08:00

while waiting for laundry to be done and baby to call me.......
here comes some time for blogging!! =)

on wed, yiling and i headed to carousel at royal plaza on scotts hotel !
all thanks to yiling who had a voucher for 2 to high tea and so we picked a day - the only day actually, which our day ended earlier..

i made the ice-kachang myself!! ahhas! with lots and lots of red beans, just the way i like it =)the desserts were awesome!! the brownies were so superb i tell you, if i wasn't that full already i would have eaten tuckloads more =X they had kuehs too! yiling liked the tapioca coated with coconut(i forgot what it's called), and it's pink! so maybe that's partly the reason why she liked it =Xafter which we walked around to digest our food a little and took this picture(above). we started laughing after taking cuz it's a man body with 2 ladies head sprouting out =S hahas!

yays!! i love high tea with girl friends, a time to gossip, to have girly talks, to catch up and more importantly, to grow fat together. ahhahs!!

18/05 outing

2008-09-01T19:31:00.004+08:00

it's been about 3 weeks since school started and i've been lagging behind already =(

oh gosh, i'd better start soon or i'll not be able to pull up my cap!

anyhow.. went for 18/05 outing on sat!

was pretty okay i would say.. went to cafe cartel, then ben and jerry's =D

debbie, mel, yiling, me!

baby, sab, jameson, kenneth

after the class outing, baby and i headed to AMK hub to catch Wall E! but, both of us were so tired(i don't know why) and fell asleep while watching the movie =X there went out $8 =( i like the seats at AMK Cathay's movie theatre, esp the couple seats, so comfy and clean! and while waiting for the movie to start at 12.35am, we camwhored =)monkey face, hahhas!!

SNDCC

2008-08-28T11:41:00.009+08:00

yesterday was sheares hall's SNDCC(Singapore National Day Celebration - yes, late i know=X)! =) it was a formal dinner held annually in hall whereby juniors had to ask seniors out for the dinner. food was average, performances were not bad, camwhoring was AWESOME. hahas!

my date - ronald =) he's eyes were SO small that i thought his eyes were closed in all the pictures we took and kept asking him to open his eyes. =X hahas! but anyway, he did this really nice picture using coloured sand for me as a gesture of asking me out for SNDCC, really pretty!!the level 7 babes! =Dlevel 7 girls + our dates =)cha-pa-lang people taking picture together (andy, carmen, kuma, me, rachel, clarence)zhi(4) yun(4) and i! she's really pretty and so pageant material ! did i mention she's 170+ tall? for the first time, i feel short beside a girl =X

lily, me and ying hui! lily has superb phototaking skills that i simply adored the 2 pictures we took and had to put them up here *lily, you must be beaming with pride when you read this =P hahas! *

chermaine, isabella and i! they were so pretty too! the level erm, 4? babes! =)

oh, and some funny pictures i found in my camera! hahs!

finally....................................................................

HAPPY 8TH MONTH TO MY BABY CHEN JIAYI !!!!!!!!!!!!! =)=)

supper

2008-08-21T02:48:00.004+08:00

went supper with tim! was his 2nd time driving without his parents after he had gotten his license. hahas! was funnn and funnny!!=D his mum's mercs has this super cool navigator which speaks! except that it isn't all the time accurate as 'she'tells him to turn left/right when there isn't any road to turn to =X
anyhow, when tim finally found his way to my hall(before 11pm as he promised), we headed to holland v for 2am dessert!!! =) the place and ambient was nice just that the menu was limited. and one thing interesting was that the waiter explained to us all the flavours of sauces they used in the dessert blah blah blah when it was served! and we so couldn't much get it cuz each dessert had like 3 to 4 sauces so we just listened and pretended that we knew and was following what he was saying =X anyhow, we talked and caught up after a pretty long time. was nice =)
oh! and he was so funny. he attempted to put carpark coupons for the first time after he got his license and his HUGE fingers tore a $1 carpark coupon when he was trying to press one digit(the circle thingy you have to pluck out to indicate the date/time blah blah) out of the coupon! super hilarious. he wasted a $1 coupon just like that. hahhas!
as expected, we got lost on the way back to hall (what could you expect from tim =X) and went zig-zag one big round!
but supper was fun! thanks tim! =)
we should have more impromptu e1 gatherings in future! =)=)

dadddyy

2008-08-18T12:10:00.002+08:00

i realised i haven't been updating frequently, guess i'm getting lazier each day.
anyhow, lectures started and out of 5 days, i end at 6pm on 4 =(
the comforting thing is, i get to wake up later! =D
i know this semester barely started but somehow i'm hoping for it to end already. can't wait to go genting/bangkok/taiwan with baby! and that's only IF daddy finally agrees to let me go =(
i kept thinking, i'm such a big girl already, why can't daddy trust me to do things in a mature manner? but pondering about it, i remember daddy telling me once, "no matter how old you are, you're always daddy's little girl" *awwww....* . so i guess it's hard for daddy to let me go, to let another man take care of me like how he's been doing so faithfully the second i was born.
okay, this is sounding like i'm getting married =X
i had a quarrel with daddy over the weekend cuz he didn't like me going to church. he insisted that church takes away family time. i know what he says is true, church's at expo, an hour and a half away. which means, 1.5(travelling there) + 2(service) + 1.5(travelling back) = 5hrs gone! so every sunday i leave house at 12.30pm and reach home at 5.30pm, sometimes even later. but i tried to make things work, i tried to work out a schedule to accomodate more time for my family. but anyhow, the verdict : not to go church on alternate sundays(when he's not working). i was so upset about it and refused to talk to him the whole of sat night + sunday. but eventually, during dinner we talked again. that's what family's like isn't it? to be upset about each other not more then 1 day. hahas!
mummy says daddy and i quarrel cuz we have the same personality. we're stubborn and do not like to give in. issit? oh no. baby, you've gotta becareful.
oh, and speaking about baby, he's working at clementi camp these few days! which means.. he's closer to hall, which means.. i get to meet him more!! =)=)

NDP! =)

2008-08-11T14:23:00.004+08:00

mummy was so lucky to have gotten NDP tickets for national day itself! apparently her company balloted them for her and she gave them to baby and i! =)

okay, i know i looked weird. the red kupon t-shirt didn't match my high waisted pants and gladiator sandals. it was ultimate unglamness and i kept telling baby that i hoped not to see anyone i/he knows at NDP. hall had no red top except that "i love kupon" t-shirt i got while working.. and since baby had a stayover the night before and had no appropriate red top, he wore my "i love kupon" t-shirt too! hahas! think the company should pay us for free advertisement! =X

we had the better seats located at the centre and goodie bags were already placed respectively on them! and so, we started pasting the singapore flag tatoo on our faces =S ultimate unglamness to the max now.

unfortunately, it started raining, so there we were in our raincoats! thank god it wasn't pouring heavily.. hungry meeee
the black knights were AWESOME. what else could i say?

last but not least... the FIREWORKS!!

during the fireworks showcase, i just stood in awe, watching every one of them burst beatifully and brightly in the dark skies. it was so beautiful. unfortunately, baby wasn't a very good photographer, hence the photo's did not much do the fireworks much justice =S hahas! baby! please brush up on your photography skills!! =P

2008-08-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes i mean the opposite of what i say...
i just found out that i'm such a hard person to decipher

2008-08-01T06:04:00.001+08:00

goodness i woke up at 5.30am today -without any help of alarms clocks.
i barely slept for 2+hrs.
i guess i subconsciously didn't want a repeat of yesterday.

2008-08-01T01:24:00.003+08:00

this was a day in which deep inside my heart, i wanted to ask, "oh god.... why?"

today i woke up 55 min later than i was supposed to, took 10min to get ready and rushed off to catch the bus in hope of not being late on the first day of work.
i was putting on my contacts when i couldn't find one side of them (i think i dropped it somewhere when i took it off yesterday unknowingly) and wore only one side for the whole day(the rest of my contact lenses were in hall).
i forgot to bring my scandals back from hall and wore one which caused me blisters for the rest of the day.
my handphone went dead in the morning and my charger's in hall, just when it was a day which i badly needed the phone.
what could make my day worse.

*then the soc pple came over to my place for some supposedly og gathering at night. very few of the freshies came, mainly seniors around.
someone : "what kind of planning is this, so few freshies came??"
and so the blame came to me YET AGAIN. why me? at least i tried my best to ask others to come.
at least i opened my place for the gathering.
i tried, to make it successful, to make it work, to make everyone happy, to please all of you. i tried.. in case u didn't know, it was a tiring day of work.. was out distributing magazines since early the morning. i didn't complain, i didnt quip. why must you say such hurtful words, when i didn't mind doing the planning, the bookings for all of you.
for the first time, i teared instantly, in the function room. i just couldn't help it anymore. i used to be able to hide it well, at least for another 5 min or so, when i could successfully leave the place and sob in my cosy corner, where no one else could see. i didn't know if anyone saw as i was desperately trying to hide it all.
but i guess they/he realised something was wrong, and was surprisingly nicer to me when i went back after weeping at home.
i called daddy to ask if he could fetch me back to hall at night as i desperately needed the phone + contact lenses. he said okay.
**when the gathering ended, at 11pm, i went up and daddy said : "you expect me to wait for you till 11+ and fetch you back?"
i couldnt bathe, take stuffs that i wanted to to hall and had to rush back to catch the bus,mrt,bus back to hall - at 11+pm.

i called X when * happened and X was out. i understand that X was busy and it wasn't convenient to talk. but i desperately needed a leaning shoulder. maybe i was expecting too much. i couldn't say much cuz it wasn't the appropriate timing. it was a short call and i coudn't tell how terrible i felt, how i needed some consolation, how i needed someone to remind me that i didn't have to please everybody. i thought X could detect something. that i was down. that i was sobbing. that i felt so maligned. but i guess it was me whose expecting the whole world to know me how i'd feel, to understand me even without me explaining. i remember carmen telling me once how 'he' could detect even a tinge of unhappiness she felt. probably i hoped X was like that as well.. then again, not everyone had that kind of sensitiviy, that kind of telepathy. even i can't be that sensitive to others, how can i expect others to be that way?

i'm sorry that i didn't call you back once i reached hall. i wasn't in a right state of mind to talk to you. i guess i needed some time to think, to ponder, to be alone. you can't be there so often for me as much as i know you want to. i need to be more independant. i know i may have been asking too much of you, i'm sorry.. it's just that i turn to you for everything, and that was how dependant i am. but it clearly shows that i shouldn't anymore rely so much on you, that it does us no good.

to colin : thanks, for asking them/him to stop pushing the blame on me. though i expected it from someone else, it came from you instead. you didn't know how appreciative and touched i felt. from the bottom of my heart, thank you =)

i do get hurt, and even more than others, i get affected by things much easily. you don't see it just because i hide it so well, so perfectly, so flawlessly.

18/05 cls gathering

2008-07-27T17:42:00.004+08:00

i realised i havent been blogging much lately.
so what have i been up to?
shopping, shopping and more shopping for go-to-school clothes of course! =X
anyway, i went to 18/05's class gathering yesterday at the mushroom pot in OG(beside centrepoint). food was........ okay actually, except that i don't very much fancy mushrooms =X
every set had some mushroom dish in it! so maybe mushroom lovers mights like that place!
then baby drove us all(10 people including baby squeezed in his car!!) to holland village to try the 2am dessert. unfortunately it didn't have space for all 10 of us, so we headed to haagen daz instead.
after which baby(who was such a darling) sent them to their various homes before we headed to 717 durians at upper serangoon!
the durians were oh-so-good i tell you! moist, creamy and sweeet! and when we ordered only one, the man selling durians said that one surely not enough. hahs! perhaps if we weren't so full already, we would have eaten more!
i'm moving back to hall next week already, time flies soo fast!!

Babyyy

2008-07-22T00:12:00.005+08:00

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

=)

high tea with mel!

2008-07-20T21:53:00.007+08:00

friday was a day with........ who else but mel!!! =D

it was a high tea day and we couldn't decide which high tea to head to so we went to mariott to have a look first before heading to goodwood park!

we wanted to have the durian dessert buffet at goodwood park hotel which comes only in the durian season but it starts from 6.30pm-9/10pm.. so us being terribly hungry already decided to have the high tea at marriot! =)

and since the high tea starts at 3pm and we still had some time to kill, we started camwhoring!and all we did from 3pm-5.30pm was to keep eating and talking! the spread they had was so good i tell you, the best i've came across so far for high tea(okay, i haven't tried much high tea). they had local cuisine like laksa, kueh-pie-ti, dim sum, chicken rice, satay, paus, jap food like sushi, sashimi, many many different kinds desserts, red bean soup plus some other i forgot what soups, nonya kuehs, ice-cream with many different toppings made available, breads, donuts, scones, kimchi, clams, salad bar, smoked salmon and many many more! and when one dish ran out, a different dish would come out!

service was great too! the waiters were friendly and kept coming to change our plates and utensils =)

i so so feel like going back again! ahahs!! mel!! another high tea cum gossip cum catch up session please!after our high tea we window shopped at orchard before heading to city hall where we had... manicure at marina square!! hahas, call us vainpots but we had fun!

after which we went to bugis's ah chew dessert place to have some dessert! so who says girls can't eat much! (okay, u must be thinking : "no wonder she's so fat ") =X ahhas!

mel mel mel!! lets hang out again please!! ahhas!! this time i'll remember to charge my camera first! =X oh, and i can't wait for our double date *winks* some time in the future!! hahs!! okay, i'm all excited to hanging out with u again!! =D

oh, and i almost forgot to mention, mel just permed her hair not long ago and they look so beautiful don't they?? *envioussss*

post birthday =)

2008-07-18T00:53:00.005+08:00

yesterday was.... post-birthday celebration!! =)

joseph booked a table at this nice nice alfresco dining place called Al Dente Trattoria at the Esplanade =D

view was great as it overlooked the river at the esplanade, and you could see the singapore flyer too! =) didn't know there was such a nice place like this at the Esplanade!

food was not bad, though the pizza i ordered was too much that i couldnt finish =X

oh, and i had white wine too, my first time trying it =)

dessert was fabulous! what could i say! the packaging itself was sooooo nice that i couldnt bare to even touch it! ahahs!

we chatted over dinner, over wine, over dessert..

about relationships.. friendships.. our future.. our studies.. it was nice catching up =)

we talked about the issue of how some people are husband/boyfriend material, about how our families influenced our outlook on marriage and family, about hall, about how god changed our lives, about what kind of spouse we yearn to be in future.. these kept me thinking, of what i'd be like next time. would i have a happy family? would i have successful and long lasting marriage? would i have a good career? okay, maybe i'm thinking too far. i've got to concentrate on my studies first! hahas!

anyhow.. we moved on to the topic of long distance relationships. baby might be going to australia to do vet science =( and so, i asked for opinions..

it's definitely not going to be easy.. i don't know, but i'm just not confident of myself. 5 years. it's half a decade without him by my side. Those around him says let it be a test. those around me said we shouldn't waste time - it was straightforward, cruel, yet somehow realistic. what would it be like getting to see him on a frequent basis again only after 5 yrs? would we feel as if we're strangers? our habits will have changed by then, would we still be used to having each other around? i don't know, and we'll never know until the 5 years passed. by then i'll be.. 26? it's all so uncertain..

i have an answer deep down inside though, and i told joseph about it. amazingly, he read my mind even before i told him about it. he thought the same way too. it might not be the nicest thing to do, but i thought that it would be for the benefit of us both, as harsh as it may be. but i'm not brave enough to do it, so perhaps i'll not. i don't know.

we'll see how things go i guess.. but the thought that he's even going to leave brings tears to my eyes. i'm so used to him, so dependant on him, and so in love with him. even one day without him, i'm missing him already. oh well, god has plans for my life. should he be the one for me, even after 5 years of not seeing him, not contacting him, i'll somehow get to meet him, and fall for him all over again. but like what baby mentioned, it's gonna be a risk we'll have to take.

on a lighter note, joseph gave me flowers!! and he carved(yes he carved it all by himself! =) ) my name on a wooden plank that could stand on the table! thanks joseph!!! =D

2008-07-15T23:41:00.002+08:00

there's this song 我知道我变漂亮了by shi xin-hui i think.. it's really nice!!!!!! it's the theme song for the 11pm channel U show "Perfect cut"!
and if anyone happens to have this song, send me please!!
okay, i'm practically glued to that show. it's really nice!! the plot and everything.. all i can say is that it's nice, nice, nice!!
i'm so addicted to the tv nowadays.
i sit infront of the tv from 5-11pm almost every weekday (since i've got no job and have nothing to do =S) and leave only for dinner/toilet breaks/short chats.
hopefully this will stop when school starts!
schools starting, SIGH(yes dave, i learnt this from you =X).

my 20th =)

2008-07-12T23:30:00.012+08:00

11th july 2008

okay, the day began with...

(on the phone) ~ 9.15am
baby : r u ready yet??
me : no!! i thought you're coming over to pick me up at 10am? ( we were going for breakfast - bah chor mee)
baby : 10am too late lars.. i'm coming earlier!
me : cannot!! i'm not done yet!! havent changed!!
baby : okok.. you go change and i'll be there at 9.30!
me : cannot!! 10am please...
:
:
:
me : okay! 10am! deal! i'm off to change now!!

~9.40am
*ding dong*
maid opens the door and TADA!! there he was at the door with...
home made breakfast!! (when i wasn't ready yet!!!) =D

baby claims he squeezed the juice himself..
BUT.....
I FOUND THIS IN HIS CAR!!!! =( =(
after breakfast, we headed to bottle tree park for a morning stroll before we had lunch at his favourite bah chor mee stall in toa payoh! everyone(well, almost) there knows his name i tell you! even the coffee lady!! hahas! so you can see how regular a customer he is there... they should have some loyalty card and his card would be so full of chops! =X
we shared a bowl of $4 bah chor mee and the uncle clearing bowls beside us said : "wah, so tian mi mi arh.." =S
dang ran la! hahas!after which we went home(mine) to catch half a movie before he left to fetch his mum somewhere.

he then came back at 5.30pm to pick me up for dinner at his so secretive place called...when we alighted from the car.. baby gave me flowers which he so successfully hid under the back seats =) =) we dined at this restaurant/bar called Barnacles located near/in front of shangrila hotel! it's really nice! and i mean really really nice there! the ambience, food, service... i'll give them all 5 stars! =D so guys, u can try taking your partners there =Poh, and be sure to bring them there in the evening and you can both catch the sun setting! a pretty and romantic sight =)and they even had people(i think they're from the phillipines) singing table to table! and for our table, baby asked them to play/sing "love is all around" !! =)the seafood platter we had! i simply love the lobsters, they were so fantastic i tell you, sweet and succulent- the way i like it! =D
baby made tiramisu for me, and surprisingly(opps! =X) it was so good!! even he was surprised too, hahhas! my baby's a baker in making!

and i so love the dress!!! baby bought it for me =) =)

thank you baby!! for the wonderful birthday =)

my actual birthday was spent with my dear dear family! and daddy was so sweet you buy me flowers!! thank you daddy!!! nothing beats a meal of nice food with my whole family. =) =)

to those who msged/facebook-ed/called/msned......... thank you for remembering my birthday! i heart you all! =D

if there's one thing i could thank god for, it'll be of the people he so carefully selected to surround and be part of my life. my family, friends, loved ones.... i'm so thankful to have all of you in my life, to have known you, to have spoken to you, to have met you, to have shared my joys and sorrows with you.. thank you friends, for being my friends. thank you daddy, mummy, kor, for being my family and showering me with your constant flow of love. thank you carmen, for always being there for me, for being my best best best cousin that seriously, sometimes i won't know what to do without you =) so carmen, you play a really really important role in my life!! to the cousins, thank you for the fun you've brought and it's something i really thank god for cuz i'll never find some one else who has such such great/close/fun cousins like me =) finally.... to baby, thank you for all that you've done.. i can never say enough thank yous to you for all that you've selflessly gave and yep, you're so dear and precious to me that i can't do without =) (okay, sorry baby, though i've got so much more to say, i think i should stop here or everyone will start puking, hahas!)

anyhow... like how everyone said to me in the birthday greetings i've received.. i've hit my big 2. and so it's time to be more mature and think about what the future lies ahead. guess i'll ponder about it sometime and make a list of what i want to achieve in life, maybe it would get me going and not leave me in a state of whatever-comes-will-come kind of mindset.

okay! so birthday's over and life... goes... on!

2008-07-12T01:34:00.002+08:00

yesterday was great!!
wo hen xi huan =)
will upload some pictures when baby sends them to me..
thank you so so much baby! for the wonderful day =)
thank you friends for your birthday greetings too!! =)

taiwan!!

2008-07-10T10:07:00.017+08:00

alert!! this is going to be a really long post with loads and loads of pictures =X

DAY 1

while waiting for the bullet train to send us to taipei, we headed to this cafe to eat and they had this object(i don't know what else to name it - refer to the picture below) that was so cute! it lights up and vibrates at the same time indicating that food is ready to be collected at the counter!

on the coach from the taipei mrt to our hotel, there was this housefly hovering around in the bus
carmen : "the housefly from taiwan looks different!"
me : laughs non-stop! hahas!
does it look any different!?!?!

i told baby about what carmen said and when he saw this photo(below)..
baby : "ya! the housefly looks different!"
he said i look like a housefly!!! =( =(
after dropping our luggage at the hotel, we headed to fisherman's wharf (i think it's spelt like that)
the toilet signs were so cute that i couldn't help taking pictures of it!
*the blue sign indictaing the male toilets on the right reads "gentle" =S
we tried taking like a thousand pictures of ourselves in the air but failed, so we gave up in the end =S
after which we headed to dan shui lao jie and that's where our feasting began.. we practically ate non-stop i tell you. it's simply mai dong xi, chi dong xi, mai dong xi, chi dong xi =S
rice cake - it tastes exactly like glutinous rice. nice!fish ball soup - didn't much suit my taste. it's harder and less chewly than the ones from Singapore but there're meat fillings insidei forgot what it's called but this was carmen's favourite! beancurd skin on the ourside, tanghoon on the inside. nicest among the 3!my first bubble tea!! it was so value for money i tell you, the pearls filled almost half the cup and every sip i took had so many pearls in my mouth!
and this reminds me..
when baby just got back from taiwan(he went there for some army training), i asked him if he got bubble tea back for me and he said he fedex-ed it over. so when we went out.. he brought bubble tea for me! and es, the pearls filled about half the cup BUT the cup was labelled "sweet talk"
me : you bluffed me! it's from sweet talk!
baby : no.. it's from taiwan! singapore where got give so many pearls one..
me : but sweet talk's from singapore!
baby : you try first then see lars..
so there i was drinking the milk tea..
baby : taste different right??
me : no wad..
baby : got.. you try again.. the pearls are more chewy..
so i drank again..
me : *a little skeptical* ya.. a bit different lehs..
!!!!!!!!! i nearly believed him can!!
baby, i thought we never lied to each other =(

i didn't buy this(was too full) but found it so interesting! the ice-cream was so long and sharp and it was only selling for 10NT = 45 cents!!
berries covered in... PIGS BLOOD!?!?
though it looked pretty appealing, i didn't dare to try them =X
they sell so many of these there. don't know what exactly they are but i think they're some kind of eggs. jane bought it for us months back when she went to taiwan =)*translated* smelly tou fu
actually i don't find them very smelly and they tasted okay. think the hong kong ones are nicer though =X
after which we headed to where else but........ SHILIN YE SHI!! yes. food, food and more food!!okay, the uploading of photos takes like forever so i decided to combine them from now =X
stawberry ice - it was really good!! especially after walking for so long in the hot hot environment.. we finished every bit of it! compared to the ones u can find in singapore, they had more fruits and were bigger in portion.
we had (from the top left going clockwise) :
tian bu la - made up of tou fu, meatball and many other floury stuffs covered with sauce that's a little sweet
mee sua - the soup was thick and a little salty but nice!
oh-ah-jian ( oyster omelette ) - they put more starch then the ones from singapore but the sauce they used were delicious!
i forgot what it's called - some soup that my dad said tasted like bak kut teh
after the eating, eating and more eating, we took the mrt back to our hotel.
for single trips, unlike singapore which uses a refundable card, they use blue chips. for entry, you scan the chip(like that of our ezlink card). for exit, we return(drop) the chip back.
so cute! they use a bitten apple for the no eating and drinking sign!
seats that should be let to the elderly/disabled/ pregnant woman are called priority seats.

DAY 2
okay, after the first day, i forgot where we went each day and started taking lesser pictures so yep, the rest are summaries.

we went to this place at some mountain (taiwan's FULL of mountains) that looks something like a ye shi as well
went for lunch at some restaurant which had apparrently appeared in the jacky wu's "shi zi lu kou" show. i regret not buying the clogs =( =( they were so comfortable! ken has one and he (claims) he's been wearing them for a long time.. =(there's this pretty shop selling cute chocolates! was so tempted to buy but they're a little waste of money. they even had marshmellows shaped into sanitary pads(look below)!!daddy keeps looking for cafes everywhere we go. so here we are at this cosy coffee house for a sip and rest.dinner was what u call the recycling of soup
1 : meat, vegetables, mushrooms blah blah blah were placed in a huge bowl of soup, eaten in steamboat style.
2 : waiter gives out all the food leaving the soup behind and adds in udon noodles and yam
3 : waiter gives out noodles with a spoonful or two scoops of soup, leaving some soup behind, he adds in rice and squashes the yam to give you - yam porridge in left over soup
we had a fruit store near our hotel so when we had time at night, off we headed there!
the watermelons we humongous!!! daddy tried to carry one and could barely lift it(even when he (self-proclaims) has mascular arms from all the weight lifting during gym workouts - yes, my parents are members of fitness first and they excercise more than me =X)oh, and in case i forget to mention... they have these basketball arcade games EVERYWHERE! even at the mouth of temples!! and they're cheaper then the ones in singapore - 10NT = 45 cents per game.we went to this flower park on one of the days. it was so beautiful!! many ou xiang ju's were taken there!

how i wish i could be like daddy and mummy(refer below) next time too! looking at the picture gives me a very heartwarming feeling =) wo xi huan =)

oh, and note the umbrella daddy's holding. so pretty right it's polka dotted and has pretty frills at the borders!! we got two of those for 300 NT = $13.50 and i saw them retailing at more than $15 EACH in singapore!this was at some.. park i think. we were there to look at some eroded rocks/stones =Swe went to the theme park too!
cuz time was limited and it was raining on and off, carmen and i didn't get to sit much rides =(

on the last night, daddy, mummy and i went coffee house hunting again. and to our surprise, we mamnaged to find this posh cosy restaurant somewhere behind our hotel, yays! so there we were, have beer(daddy) , lavenda milk tea(mummy), haagen daz ice-cream(me) ! =)
i so wanna head to taiwan again!! some time soon i hope =X unfortunately didn't get to shop much =(
overall taiwan was a great experience! just some things i took note in taiwan :
- the roads are bumpy. and i mean really bumpy. the tour guide claims that the government tou gong jian liao, so the roads are pretty uneven.
- traffic's a little haphazard. especially in kaohsiung, don't depend on the traffic lights
- many there don't even know a single bit of english, so your chinese has to be proficient
- shoes and clothes in the night markets(ye shi) are really cheap! shoes/clothes/bags usually cost about $9-14 sing dollars. i saw clothes there which cost $13 in taiwan selling for $26 in singapore online shops!
- the driver seats are on the left instead of right
- there're sexily clad girls in small shops selling beetle-nut. from what the tourguide says, they wear more nowadays, but still, if you're lucky, you may see some in bikinis

okay! that's about all on my taiwan trip! i like taiwan!!! =D
oh, and i think my photoshopping skills improved!! hahas!

back!

2008-07-08T16:27:00.002+08:00

hi all!!
i'm back from taiwan!!
trip was so great and i'm missing it already =(
didn't get much though,
if daddy wasn't there i would have gotten a bag full of clothes!
the clothes there were (to me) a little ah-lian-ish though, but still, shopping's my favoourrite pastime!
we bought lots of goodies home, but mostly for the boyfriends(including carmen's) and mummy and daddy's colleagues
i havent weighed myself (don't dare =X) but i think i gained back the pounds i desperately tried to lose weeks back =(
will upload the pictures later on, stay tune! =D

no more soc camps for me.

2008-06-30T21:00:00.005+08:00

i've gotten enough.
camp was okay, og was great, but perhaps what affected me were people from the committee/helping out.
it's okay if you tease me. people tease me all the time and i've been able to take it, but this time was OVER. i didn't say it out doesn't mean that i didn't mind.
you all have no right to say i'm slow just because i don't get what you say.
if i didn't get what you say, it's most likely because :
1) i don't get your joke which isn't any of my fault because your joke is PLAIN LOUSY.
2) we are people of different frequency - WE JUST CAN'T CLIQUE.
so instead of saying/ assuming that i'm slow it would do more good if you kindly explained what the joke meant or what i didn't understand.
saying it once, twice, thrice or even four times is okay, but saying it continuously for all 3 days is not to me.
if you can't take it that i'm too slow a person for you, then don't bother talking to me. it will do both parties good.
you don't know me well, don't assume that you know me better then other people do. please.
i talk to you less then twice a month( and sometimes not even once) and you say things like you've known me for ages. and for some others, i don't even know your name till the camp, so don't follow the blind and speak of others.
not that i can't take jokes, but some(and i mean ONLY SOME) of you have gotten it too far.
and when i make mistakes, must you make a mountain out of a molehill of it? don't people all make mistakes? just that maybe i'm blurrer then some others so i'm more careless . but they
are so TRIVIAL matters like forgetting how to spell my group name. you don't have to make a fuss out of it/keep teasing me when i already apologised.
and when u speak something of me, allow me to retaliate - at least explain my stand and not shoot me then ask me to keep quiet immediately. that's VERY RUDE of you. i keep quiet just so to give you due respect and not to embarrass you in front of others, can't you do it too? it's basic courtesy.
it kept me thinking that i ended up in the wrong faculty. i don't seem to be able to communicate with people there(some, i mean). i mean, we have no common interest. i don't read manga/watch animes/ play computer games except those like solitaire... and i think most of you would think that i'm just some flower pot who bothers to dress up nicely when going to class/lectures. honestly, no discrimination but WE ARE SO DIFFERENT and i feel sometimes that i don't belong. thank god for people like rara, yiling, donna, dave, peide, yan guang, calvin, lionel, and some others that kept me going. and i thought that YOU were nice, this camp changed my mind TOTALLY.
i'm not going to join the camp next year, period.

to the freshies from Cerberus - you guys were an AWESOME bunch! thanks for hyping up the camp and making it so fun!
fellow Cerberus councillors - thanks for the support you gave me in the cheers and what nots
yiling - thanks a million for joining this camp with me! else i would have died inside =S

*i know i sound really hateful in this post, but this is my only medium of venting my frustrations and so you can see how upset i really am about this. seriously, you guys gotta grow up and not be so childish. i know i have not right/am in not position to judge, but can't you just spare a thought for me? of how i would feel?

AWESOME.

2008-06-26T02:20:00.004+08:00

today was a packed day!! =)

went back to school in the afternoon to meet the swoc flag peeps in hall to settle the cd thing, then i went to raffles city's i-forgot-what-name (the japenese marche like) place for dinner with zhss band peeps! it was a long time since i saw all of them, plus mr aw and mr goh were there too! we chatted and played some stupid games cuz mr goh can't seeem to stop buying food and poor us had to help him finish them up! it was nice seeing all the seniors though, many changed a little but all of them still looked good! =)

me, sze hui, zoe, swee eng

zoe and i!

the same four with mr goh

and mr aw this time

with everyone!

erina(my flute senior) and i

after dinner, zoe n i went to meet the e1 boys!

i asked them over to city hall(they were at dhoby ghaut at first) as i wanted to bring them to menotti to try their desserts, BUT only to find it under renovation =( so... i suggested dempsey(where else, but the place to be!!)!! and so, we followed amos home so that he could drive us there! hahas!

BUT, ben and jerry's at dempsey was just about to be closed when we reached =( it was barely 11.30pm!! and i thought they close 1am everyday so i asked and they said it's only for fridays and weekends =( sorry boys!! we shared some ice-cream and headed to Harry's cuz that tim boy wanted so badly to drink. it was nice there though, my first time inside. i didn't drink but chatted with wai meng. was nice catching up with him! havent talked to him that much since secondary 2(when he sat behind me and threatened upteen times to cut my hair). oh! and i told the boys that jie sheng got into NUS medicine and they were SHOCKED! hahas! so was i when i first heard it but well done jie sheng! e1 produced a doctor!! hahas!

anyway, after we were told to leave as Harry's closed at 1am, we headed to Holland Village. Tim was so high today i tell you, he didn't even need a tinge of alcohol to make him that high! tim, you've gotta thank me for calling you along, ahhas! else you'll be stuck at home alone! and that silly boy still wanted to drink, so we headed to wala wala to find it closed and he still refused to give up and headed to cold storage there BUT it didn't have the alcohol he wanted, s0 YAY! home sweet home! oh and they kept associating me and tim together! no okay! i'm... i'm erm less blur and high! =) sorry tim! ahhaas!

amos was THE BOSS today, offend him and he'll not fetch you home. ahhahas! it was so funny! he kept threatening to leave us behind whenever we, okay not we, the boys teased him! ahahs! anyway.. thanks a million amos, for fetching me home!!

anyhow, i had a great time today! the company was nothing more i could ask for =)

if nothing crops up, i'll be heading down to SGH to visit zhen hao tomorrow, together with eric and amos. that poor boy's stuck in the hospital =( hope he gets well soon!!

random

2008-06-24T23:36:00.004+08:00

had anyone ever told you how beautiful cupcakes could look?

goodness! i'm so inspired to want to learn how to bake a pretty cupcake but i guess it takes tremendous effort + a delicate(and not clumsy) pair of hands + loads and loads of patience, which, i don't suppose i possess YET.

hahs.. oh well, i'll just stick to eating em'.

blood test results

2008-06-22T20:50:00.003+08:00

went for a blood test on friday due to the many awful blue-blacks(orh-cehs) found on my leg
=( =(
actually i thought it was simply a visit to the doctor cuz i had this huge patch of blueish black oval bruise found on my ever so visible right calf which hadn't much subsided ever since i got it from the camp. BUT, when we reached the clinic, daddy insisted that i had a blood test done cuz i bruise really easily and it seems to take a thousand years for the blue-blacks to disappear =(
and i teared even before the needle was inserted near my vein! the doctor must be thinking that i'm a scary-cat crybaby.
okay, enough said. so i received the lab reports of my blood test today!
all was fine EXCEPT that i had some low dunnoe what blood counts which the doctor said was caused by the lack of vitamin K from green leafy vegetables. daddy actually made a trip there in the morning since the kiasu him(or rather i should say concerned) wanted to know that results of the test BUT he made me go down again with him in the evening after church just so to hear the doctor say that i wasn't eating enough vegetables.
anyhow, the doctor said that my bleeding time was approximately 3 seconds longer then normal people(does he mean that i'm abnormal? =S), so when i get hit/knock onto something(which i do frequently) i'll have more blood bleeding inside, causing bruises to appear more frequently and larger in size.
so... in short, i'll have to eat more green leafy yucky greens to prevent my already ugly legs from getting uglier. and to people out there, if you don't want to spend money, risk having an injection, get bruises easily..... EAT MORE GREENS!!
but thank god that there's nothing wrong with my liver.. =)
oh! and the doctor says that soya bean drinks(he specially mentioned jollibean/mr bean) are good for health and compared to milk you're least likely to put on weight drinking them. hahas! i think he'll make a good ambassador for jollibean/mr bean shops!
i'm craving for 727 durians now =(

Shopping again!! =D

2008-06-21T19:20:00.002+08:00

today we went....... SSHOOPPPING!!!!

yays! hahas! my favoourrite pastime!! =D =D

and we both went home with something each! well.. he had more though =X hahas!

i seriously think i should start avoiding shopping centres cuz i never fail to see things i like =(

oh! and i tried on this long flowy yellow maxi dress from warehouse! it was so gorgeous i tell you!! and guess what, it's $143 bucks if i'm not wrong =( =(

oh well.. you don't always get what you want, do you?

anyhow.. today was fun! i especially liked the part where i chose clothes for him, waited outside the changing room to see how he looks in every piece and how he looked good in all of them =)

okay! off to dinner with daddy and mummy! =D

shhoopping!

2008-06-19T18:15:00.002+08:00

today was mummy+daddy+me day!! =D =D
daddy and i met mummy at raffles city for lunch at cedele where we bumped into aunty jo!
the mushroom soup was really good and they had free flow of bread to go with it too!
we then headed to topshop and daddy bought me skinny jeans for my ultra fat legs =) =)
after which we headed to orchard tangs to get daddy's singlets and mummy - watch some cooking demonstration for some frying pans she bought not long ago.. i can see mummy slowly evolving to an aunty! hahahs!
oh! and we saw this hugo boss gold watch which was so classy and beautiful! and it's like $600+ =(
after that we went to wisma to get mummy's belt from miss selfridge before heading home! mummy and i actually wanted to shop more but daddy was tired already.. oh well! we all went home with something! =)
i love spending time with mummy and daddy! =D

meeting yet again

2008-06-11T19:19:00.003+08:00

e1 girls taken at my place! got it from zhen hao today =)

i'm in a meeting YET AGAIN.
i'm sick of meetings already, most of the meeting time i'll either be on msn chatting or online shopping. not that i don't pay attention, i try to okay! hahas! but i guess my attention span's really short. opps =X
these days have been busy busy busy. i just wanna get done and over with please.
oh, and starbucks called asked me to work at holland village and i said it's too far. think they'll never offer me a job anymore, no job still so fussy! =X oh well! i think i should not be so fussy anymore, I SERIOUSLY NEED MONEY. anyone willing to donate to suelynn's welfare fund?? =P
yay yay, everything's gonna be over SOON. no more late nights, meetings, pimples and more air-con, home-cooked food , tv!!
i havent been catching my daily dose of tv and the late nights are causing pimples to appear on my already bad enough looking face =(
okay, back to meeting.

pictures from yeye's birthday!

2008-06-10T12:53:00.006+08:00

jane was such a sweet girl,

she read my blog and knew that i was homesick, so she sent me this penguin song! it was so cute i tell you, and it brought a smile to my face=)

thanks girl! =)

i'm waiting for the slow-pok andeee to start our meeting so heres some time to update with some pictures! =)

yeye's birthday!!!

the cousins =)

the cousins won ourselves an ang pow each for winning a game!! =D

my family's candid picture with yeye (mummy keeps looking at kor and says he's good-looking, but she didn't mention anything about me =( )

long and i doing i-don't-know-what

chew's family two pairs of unidentical twins

the cake for yeye (it's a super duper nice durian cake from 717 of something!)

random picture

then.. while waiting for Kung Fu Panda to start.....

we camhored!! =D

missing in the cousins(above) were rui and zai - one had band performance the next day, the other had band camp =(

anyhow, i love the cousins!! =D and sam's back in aussie =( i wonder when will be out next mass outing =(

2008-06-09T04:30:00.001+08:00

the meeting lasted from 7pm yesterday to 4.30am today.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.

meeetingg

2008-06-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

i'm in a meeting now and i'm not paying much attention =(
i thought i liked this comm better but i kinda feel out of place.
maybe its because the comm consists of very few of pple from my block, or maybe because my close friends from hall didn't join the comm(they don't really join comms anyway).
i can't wait for it to be over.
i want to go home, really.
even for a night, i'll be appreciative.
but it seems hard, i tried.
daddy's unhappy that i'm not home most of the time and as much as he wants me home, i want to be home even more badly.
amidst the so much time spent in hall, i still wouldn't call it my second home.
and suddenly i yearn to help flag.
not because it's very fun, but because there's only calvin and i helping ying hui.
and it's the last canvassing day they're holding.
i want to do my part =(
and he's still in china, no comfort shoulders to lay on =(
hope that he's having lots of fun though! can't wait for him to be back!
okay, back to meeting.

yeye's birthday!

2008-06-08T14:04:00.002+08:00

yesterday's dinner was A BLAST! well, at least to me! hahahas!!
i'm missing the cousins already!
we had dinner at crystal jade to celebrate yeye's birthday and had 5 tables to ourselves!
it was a night where we saw those whom we only get to see once a year - chinese new year, and sam's back from australia too!! =) =)
and as usual, the cousins took a long, nicely decorated, located at an oriental ambience corner table to ourselves!
rui was the chairperson, sam the vice, and me the secretary!
hahahas!!
and we talked, eat, laughed, played games(uncle wai seng organised some simple yet fun games where we could win ang pao's kindly sponsored by yeye) and caught up!
it's really fortunate how the cousins could remain close like that =) so proud of us! hahs!
and after dinner, the cousins went to catch kunfu panda at cine! the show wasn't very good i would say, kept falling asleep on and off! oh well, it's the company which matters after all! =)
will post the pics when i get them from sam! =)

2008-06-06T16:39:00.002+08:00

he brought me my gladys yesterday and now he's flown off to china =(
was quite funny though
me : mummy, u called arh?
mummy : ya lar.. your friend came just now issit?
me : huh??
mummy : jennifer(maid) said that jiayi came just now to take gladys, u meeting him later huh?
me : huh?? no.. he's flying off to china already wad.. somemore i'm still stuck in pre-camp in hall!
mummy : dunnoe leh, just now jennifer told me he came to take gladys
me : issit?? oh!! (excited) hahhas! mummy! i think you spoilt his surprise!
mummy : hahaha! oh no.. don't tell him i told you arh..

hahas! mummy's so cute!!
see boy! i've got SPIES.. hahas!
on a sidenote, i'm going home soon!! yays!! =D
finally!! PRE-CAMP'S OVERRRR!!!!!!
the 2 days of pre-camp were so tiring i tell you, i hardly had enough sleep! but all in all, it was quite fun! =) except that andee was not around most of the time and i had to do many things =(
andee, u owe me a macdonald's meal! =D
oh, and i think i got darker despite the many slabs of sunblock i applied every morning =(
homee sswwwwwwwweeeeeettt hooomeee! =D

hall again

2008-06-03T21:43:00.003+08:00

back in hall again =(

he's leaving for china soon =( and he brought "Sue Lynn's late night survival pack" over yesterday to accompany me throughout the 10 days he'll not be around! wanna take pictures of it and post it here but i don't have a camera in hall =( in case you're curious, the survival pack consists of loads and loads of snacks plus chocolate drink sachets. he just wants to make me fat! hahas! anyhow.. thanks so so much dear! =D
and we caught underdog again yesterday.. i keep falling asleep while watching it! think i need to watch it 4 times to complete the show. but it's always nice to fall asleep on his lap.. comfy! =)
i'm gonna miss him =(

gosh, can't wait for all the hall stuffs to be over!

i need to find a job and earn some money to cover the deficit i'm facing from excessive online shopping! can someone stop me please.
oh, and i'm finding every chance to go home when possible. my hall room doesn't feel very clean cuz i just swept, and didn't mop the floor.. so i wear slippers into the room and take it off only when i get on bed. so in short, the bed's the cleanest part of the room. hahas! and i left glady's at home =(

e1 night!

2008-06-01T02:05:00.002+08:00

today was e1 night!
the peeps came to my place where we ordered mac delivery and talked, played cards, some, billiard and mahjong.
it was nice having a long chat with the girls, reminiscing the old times, catch up on each others lives and knowing how everyone's doing.
i miss them!! meet up for dinner soon okay?? then we can gossip again! this time without wai meng pretending to clear up the table beside so as to eavesdrop!
the guys were nonsensical as usual, but a fun bunch to be with! =)
special thanks to amos who helped me carry the laptop all the way from city hall to my place,
wai meng and some others guys who helped clear up, eric who helped spread the msg and everyone else who came!
and tim, u still owe me drinks! hahs! yes! cafe iguana for my margarita! =D
oh and jason and zhen hao threw their phones like don't know how many times just to prove that their phones were hardy! crazy people! they even threw it against concrete wall and guess what? their phones still remained intact and in good working condition!
and i played bridge after so long!! =)
all in all.. today was simply great! i love e1!=)

the best day

2008-05-31T00:59:00.004+08:00

the best day of my life. thank you!!!

i'm the luckiest guy in the world. to have you =)

-jiayi

last week!

2008-05-26T14:23:00.003+08:00

wednesday
packing, packing and more packing! me, SWOC, some SECC peeps headed to dempsey road not to have ben and jerry's, nor chill, but to pack 6300 goodie bags!! can you believe it!!! 6300!! so we packed from 3.30pm to 6am! some left at about 11pm to catch the last bus home, i stayed till 3am and the remaining 6/7 people left at 6am! thank god for him or i'll have to try catching a cab home or stay till 6am with them to continue packing the last 1600 bags! i packed so much that my arms were so sore and couldn't get a good night sleep! had to sleep with my chest facing the ceiling or my arms would ache even more if i leaned on either sides =( thank god it's over! oh, and did i mention? all these packing for $1200 for flag!

thursday
went to watch made of honour with him at night! was a pretty nice show i would say, and i think the female lead's so so pretty!!

friday
went to the MINDS school at jurong! was a tiring but somehow enriching experience. i never thought of things like "what if my fetus is detected to have down syndrome? will i abort him/her?", but going to this camp kept me thinking about it. anyway, some information i checked online about these kids :

what is down syndrome : Down syndrome (DS) is a condition in which extra genetic material causes delays in the way a child develops, and often leads to mental retardation. It affects 1 in every 800 babies born. The symptoms of Down syndrome can vary widely from child to child. While some kids with DS need a lot of medical attention, others lead very healthy and independent lives. Though Down syndrome can't be prevented, it can be detected before a child is born.

what causes it : Normally, at the time of conception a baby inherits genetic information from its parents in the form of 46 chromosomes: 23 from the mother and 23 from the father. In most cases of Down syndrome, however, a child gets an extra chromosome - for a total of 47 chromosomes instead of 46. It's this extra genetic material that causes the physical and cognitive delays associated with DS.

what is autism : Autism (sometimes called “classical autism”) is the most common condition in a group of developmental disorders known as the autism spectrum disorders (ASDs). Autism is characterized by impaired social interaction, problems with verbal and nonverbal communication, and unusual, repetitive, or severely limited activities and interests.

what causes it : Scientists aren’t certain what causes autism, but it’s likely that both genetics and environment play a role. Researchers have identified a number of genes associated with the disorder. Studies of people with autism have found irregularities in several regions of the brain. Other studies suggest that people with autism have abnormal levels of serotonin or other neurotransmitters in the brain. These abnormalities suggest that autism could result from the disruption of normal brain development early in fetal development caused by defects in genes that control brain growth and that regulate how neurons communicate with each other. While these findings are intriguing, they are preliminary and require further study. The theory that parental practices are responsible for autism has now been disproved.

anyhow, though they may look and behave differently, it was a pretty fun experience! though it can be really tiring teaching and teaching them how to complete a task, but i guess it taught me to be more patient with others.. and there's this little boy shawn who's really so cute! he always stands beside me(his height about that at my hips), holds my hands and says "i like you" then kisses my hands. so adorable! they weren't as hard to handle as i thought but many often wonder away themselves and you gotta always watch out for them and do regular head-counts.
they're more obedient then some normal primary school kids i would say, like when i tell them "go wash your hands", "go throw the plate ", they'll listen and do it without a sign of disobedience or reluctance. oh, and i had to bathe this 12-year-old girl too! my first time bathing some one else!
left the school at about 10.35 as i didn't want to stay over and he surprised me at bukit batok mrt to send me home!! he was such a sweetheart i tell you, and he bought my favourite and have-been-craving-so-much-for tang yuan from chinatown! because he insisted that i have the tang yuan in the car so that it won't be all soggy when i have it by the time i reach home, we stopped at this carpark and shared the tang yuan =) bliss! =)

saturday
he accompanied me to bukit batok mrt station to meet my friend then head back to the MINDS school early in the morning! =)
camp ended at about 2pm when i rushed home to bathe, change and head to city hall starbucks to collect money + indemnity forms from the campers of Sheares Exposure Camp! after which, me, val, andee and sab met the 18/05 peeps at billy bombers at marina square! it was nice seeing everyone again and catching up!
after which he sent andee, mel, deb and ragen home before sending me home ! he was so sweet to send all of them home =) oh! but one thing to note dear, please remember where you parked your car! hahahs! every time he parks at some huge carpark, i'll try to take note of the level, and section of carpark he parks at and remind him. see!! you can't do without me! =P

sunday
dim sum breakfast with family at junction 8 before heading to city hall carpark again to collect money + indemnity with sab and andee

is it time?

2008-05-21T09:49:00.005+08:00

been busy these days!
sigh, flag's taking up so much of my time!!!
i shouldn't have joined 2 holiday committees thinking that i'll have more time for my studies next sem.. =(
and because of the two holiday comms, i'm neglecting others..
i feel really bad already but things still aren't going as i hoped..
maybe it's because they're giving more than i am thus hoping to get the same amount back?
but yet they don't pressure me to.
anyone might say to their boy/girlfriends/friends no, it's okay, i'll do anything for you without wanting anything in return, but i guess deep down he/she/they will be in hope that their partner/friends will at least do a little to make him/her/them feel appreciated?
i don't know, they don't say it but i can feel it =(
i don't know if i'm thinking too much, but as much as they may be upset about it, it hurts me too..
you know everytime i say that i wanna do this, to go somewhere with some people, i really want to do so! but things are not always in my control, something crops up, pops out and i can't just neglect it.
i'm sorry.. =(
i seriously think my time management's really bad.
everytime i try to plan for something, something else comes out, and it's really not like i wanted it like that...
more than anything, i'd want to carry out what i planned to initially too..
i guess people around me are getting tired of accomodating my hectic schedule and all..
is it time to stop tiring the people around me?
is it time to let them be free to do whatever they want instead of restricting them to my schedule?
is it time, to let them go?
is it time?

meetingg

2008-05-17T19:26:00.002+08:00

went for some meeting for the SOC camp coming up today!! was quite okay.. i actually thought it was a pure meeting but ended up playing some ice-breaking games among the GL's.. guess they needed some pple to try out the games! after that SWEET dave,hahas , drove me to vivo to solely get tu tu kueh for my mummy(he's hardly that nice, hahas!), then i accompanied him to have his lunch(yes, he had lunch at 5+pm) and after that he drove me home! and as usual, whenever he drove, we'd shout at each other in the car. hahahs, u can call that stress relieving or him being mean else i would have to yell at him =X anyhow, thanks dave!
okay, out to town with mummy for shopping laterr!! =D

canvassing

2008-05-14T20:25:00.004+08:00

went canvassing today AGAIN.
=( =( =(
sigh, why did i choose to succumb to my friend's persuasion to join SWOC flag =(
i hate canvassing!
we had to comb the whole industrial estate of Ang Mo Kio to ask for donations,
get chased by big black brown huge barking dogs,
get threatened by office workers
and walk endlessly under the scorching hot sun, and today, rain.
=( =( =(
but oh well,
i agreed to, so there.
well.. i could have picked up a new hobby, learn to play the guitar, get a job blah blah blah instead of waking up at 8am in the morning (and even earlier tml) and head to another day of canvassing..
it's weird that i'm doing it all in the name of charity and i'm not feeling any good about it, AT ALL.
and charity's charity, why must there be competition among halls just to win some stupid shield and glorify the name of the hall?
this is now called COMPETITION and not CHARITY.
our motives have all gone wrong!!
we're trying to collect as much money as we can in the name of competition, charity's now secondary.
WHY AM I DOING THIS!?!?!
it's burning all the free time i deserve to have.
SIGH.
i hate to ask people for money now.
i've came to a conclusion that people who donated doesnt donate out of goodwill or willingly. they are forced to.
it's like we just corner some poor office worker who may not be earning much and keep pestering her to donate some money(and not coins, mind you) by cooking up(actually they are not really lies) some poor man's story just so she would make a personal donation.
we would say "any amount will do" and smile smile a little hoping that her/his donation would be above $10 and leave gleefully after collecting the money or grumble if she/he doesn't upon leaving.
we had to eat terrible food at stuff canteens(not exactly THAT bad actually, exaggerating a little =X) and walk what seem like a gazillion hours(when it's actually 4/5) when i could lay myself in front of the tv and enjoy being a couch potato.
WHAT IS THIS.
okay, at least the donations we got for these two days tripled the amount the previous batch got for the Ang Mo Kio area.
this, the only thing that's consoling me right now.
enough of naggings for now and hello canvassing tml again =(

out of hall!

2008-05-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

moved out of hall!!
sigh, think i'm gonna miss hall, the freedom to leave my room messy, to play loud music and to talk during late nights..
i had so much barang barangs to move home, that my daddy needed to make TWO trips!!!
oh,
and i moved my fish tank home too!!
u know what? i haven't changed the water in the fish tank ever since calvin gave it to me(that's like for.. 8 months??).
and when i brought it home, daddy(i think cuz he had nothing to do and needs a new hobby) went to wash the tank and changed the water.
then he, mummy and kor went to lunch and when daddy came back home with 3 new guppies to add to the collection...
HE FOUND MY PREVIOUS FISHES FLOATING UPSIDE DOWN!!!!! =(
think it's because of the chlorinated water..
see daddy!!
i was smart not to wash my tank!!
and i think 1 new guppy just died =(
i think it's something to do with the water.. poor fishes.. =(
anyhow, one of the new guppies he bought seems pregnant.. i hope she survives through to give birth to many many babies!!!
i like to see tiny baby fishes evolve to have pretty colourful fins =)
canvassing's gonna start soon..
sigh, there goes my holidays.. =(

2008-05-04T17:24:00.004+08:00

today i woke up at 12.10pm! and i usually leave house for church at 12.25pm, which meant... i had only 15 min to wash and dress up!! that wasn't so bad. the worst was, i found out that i was home alone! my maid had her off day, my mummy went to yoga, brother to gym, daddy to work and there i was stranded at home alone - WITHOUT HOUSE KEYS.
which again meant , i couldn't go to church cuz there was no one to lock the door!
i called mummy immediately and asked what time she's coming home and she said not so soon, so i asked if i could not lock the door thinking that it's pretty safe cuz there's security guards around and she said, "how can!!" then she passed the phone to daddy whom i supposed met her up for lunch. then daddy said "sue lynn, how can u leave the door unlocked when u want to go out?" then i said "okay, then i won't go church. " , hung up the phone and started tearing. well, i had no one to blame except for myself for leaving the house keys in hall but somehow i was upset with my parents for.. erm.. not allowing me to not lock the door? now i feel so unreasonable =X but anyway.. 3 min after i hung up the phone, daddy called. "i'm driving home now so that mummy can lock the door for u "
you must be thinking that i'm such a spoilt brat now =X
so anyway, yays!! i could go to church after all and he drove me to jln kayu to take bus too!!! =D
thanks daddy, for forsaking some of your lunch time just so to come home to lock the door for me =)

anyhow, yesterday i went to catch ironman with him! it's a nice show i would say! exciting!! so for those who loves action (and maybe violence) , it's the show for you! then we headed to kinokuniya.. i wanted to buy this book "an hour to live,an hour to love" initially but i thought it was pretty expensive for a thin book(60 pages only!) so.. the cheapskate me decided to read it there!
we settled our selves at some corner of the bookstore, and read the book together =) somehow, just a simple reading of book with him.. gave me a xing fu de gan jue... =)
oh! and i bought a tube top online!! can't wait for it to be sent! it's my first time buying clothes online and i was so kan cheong that i asked him to check for replies from that online shop when i wasn't able to use my laptop!
can't wait!!! =D

=) =) =)

2008-04-30T21:10:00.005+08:00

my girlfriend's a band geeek!! hahaha

=)

2008-04-30T16:33:00.002+08:00

" I know some people search the world,
to find something like what we have.. "
=)

speedtest

2008-04-29T18:34:00.002+08:00

i was so bored... so... TADA!!

59 words

Speedtest

i hit my record high!!
think ever since i got into computing, i'm typing much faster =S

home sweet home!!

2008-04-28T20:02:00.005+08:00

I DIDN'T MANAGE TO FINISH MY PAPER TODAY!!! =( =( =(

i called him straight after my paper and here it goes.
me : *screams* i didn't finish my paper!!!
him : huh, u can do ah?

yes, it's him, my BOYFRIEND. hahas

anyway.. last saturday's 2 papers, 1102 + perfume and cosmetics(P&C) were terrible.
i didn't really study for P&C and went in with a mind to S/U it BUT it turned out even worse than expected. now i just hope not to fail =(
and 1102.. okay, lets not talk about it else i'll just rattle on and on and not know where to stop.

anyway.. the only good thing thats going to happen??
I'M GOING HOME TODAY!!! =D
no more maggie mee for lunch!!
air-con when i sleep!! (the weather has been immensely terrible these days)
bolster to hug!!
and i get to see mummy and daddy everyday!! =)
oh and in case i forgot to mention, i'll be closer(in proximity) to him!!! =D
daddy's coming to pick me up later =)
but he can only come quite late cuz he has to head home from work, shower, have dinner, then drive here..
which means.. i may not be able to go for prata supper with him =(
oh well! home SWEEEEEEET home!!! =D

oh and my daddy's so sweet(as usual)
me: daddy can u come fetch me home today? í'll be staying home till next monday..
daddy: can.. but i'll be quite late u noe..
me : okay!! anyway i need time to pack! but.. is it okay for u? cuz u have to rush here and there..
daddy : it's not a problem.. i'd rather have you home than in hall, then i can see u everyday

my daddy's so sweet right??
he's been exceptionally sweet ever since i moved to hall.. when he's off on weekdays, he calls and comes all the way to my hall to bring me out for lunch/dinner cuz he knows that i get sick of hall food =X
oh and mummy calls me to go shopping with her on saturdays(as along as my daddy's working)! =) =)

*i didn't get the embroidery tunic dress(mentioned in the previous post) in the end =(

i want =(

2008-04-27T22:33:00.006+08:00

I LOVE THIS (click here and scroll all the way down) EMBROIDERY TUNIC DRESS!!!!

there's only one piece for the white,
and i have to comment really soon if i want it.

but,
i need to save money +
i think it might be too short

=( =( =(

surprise, surprise!!

2008-04-25T08:54:00.006+08:00

yesterday,

at around 10.45pm,

when the sky was immensely dark,

the wind cold and chilly,

I was desperately trying to cram more 1102 into my head,

thinking of when i can finally start on my perfume and cosmetics module,

and try not to fall asleep,

chat on msn,

blog,

facebook,

when...........................

someone called!!

guess who??

it's was.......................

TADA!!!!

jiayi's delivery service!!! =D =D

and there he was at my door bringing in a number of surprises!!

1 : his specially baked heartshaped cookies in the nicely decorated air-tight bottle

2 : the boy and girl shaped cookies (whose both, right hands are broken =X)

3 : famous amos chocolate chip and macademia cookies!!

all to accompany me through the hours(i hope) of study, study and study!!

oh, and not to forget,

THE BILL. (=S)

notice the thickness of the boy and girl cookies, it was on purpose!! but he claims that he had more non-chocolate dough leftover =X

anyway, i know i've repeated so many times in my blog till you've gotten sick of it...

but...............

HE'S REALLY SO SWEEEET!!!

=) =) =) =)

oh, and he bought the famous amos cuz he thinks that the ones he baked ain't that nice, but as a matter of fact, THEY ARE!! REALLY! =)

and they were a thousand times better than the ones i baked for 18/05 during valentine's day which he remembers and keeps teasing me about how hard(and awful, but he just couldn't bare to say it =P) they were!

hahas!!

after that he drove me out to get my bubble tea , then it was back to hall to study =(

he keeps bringing surprises into my life.. that i wonder how dull my life would be without him..

okay, study time.

2008-04-24T23:23:00.007+08:00

MY BOYFRIEND SAYS I'M FAT =(
MY BOYFRIEND HINTED THAT I'M A BIMBO =( =(
MY BOYFRIEND SAYS THAT HE DOESN'T WANT TO EAT ANY COOKIES I BAKE =( =( =(

BUT HE DOESN'T MIND ANY OF
THE ABOVE =)=)=)=)=) (written by him)
>> "like real =P"

i miss the e1 peeps!!

2008-04-24T19:06:00.003+08:00

was talking to tim online (when he was doing some army duty =S) and he's taking his driving(practical) test soon!! so here it goes!

..............

Housemusic says:
haha ok if i pass my test im gonna give u a call and youre gonna give me a treat to congratulate me!!! hahah

[sUeLyNn] says:
more like you're gonna give me a treat cuz i'm helping u celebrate!

[sUeLyNn] says:
hahas!

Housemusic says:
THIRD MAY OK

Housemusic says:
haha

[sUeLyNn] says:
YES

Housemusic says:
eh eh ive got a plan

Housemusic says:
if i pass i'll treat you

Housemusic says:
if i fail u treat me hahaha

[sUeLyNn] says:
okay

[sUeLyNn] says:
fine

Housemusic says:
dont try n escape treating me hahahaha

[sUeLyNn] says:
oh wait... and u make sure u DRIVE SAFELY AND SLOWLY WHEN WE'RE GOING FOR SUPPER. I DON'T WANNA DIE YOUNG

[sUeLyNn] says:
hahaas

Housemusic says:
hahaha i'll make sure the safety belts are working. thats all i can promise

[sUeLyNn] says:
oh man

[sUeLyNn] says:
wait

[sUeLyNn] says:
prepare a helmet for me + protective gears too

Housemusic says:
hahaha sure thing

[sUeLyNn] says:
hahahahs

Housemusic says:
or you could just hide in the boot

[sUeLyNn] says:
EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Housemusic says:
wiht styrofoam bits

tim's SO KIND.
haahahs! anyway, it's been a while since i talked to him.. he's always such a fun person to be with =D
now i wonder when i'm gonna book my driving test =X

2008-04-24T10:17:00.004+08:00

i miss him =(
it must be the rain and accompanying cold weather =(
study please.

2008-04-23T21:28:00.001+08:00

chatting with amos on msn is stress-relieving! hahahs

a poem

2008-04-23T18:19:00.003+08:00

i came across this poem and thought i'd like to share..

Tomorrow Never Comes
-- By Norma Marek

If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly, and pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss, and call you back for just one more.
If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action, and play them back throughout my days
If I knew it would be the last time,
I would spare an extra minute or two,
To stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you know I do.
So, just in case tomorrow never comes, and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you, and I hope we never will forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.
So, if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day
That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear,
That you love them very much, and you'll always hold them dear.
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "thank you" or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

=)

I.LOVE.WEBCASTS.

2008-04-23T16:57:00.005+08:00

oh gosh. i haven't finished studying and here i am blogging AGAIN.

was tired of the endless webcast watching and so i started to take random pictures!

nice view huh! =D

my little gladys and pretty handphone accompanies me through thick and thin(the exam period =X)!

i've been having maggie mee for lunch for last fri, sat, yesterday and today! and the exact same flavour somemore! think i'm gonna get real sick of it soon... which means... time to buy another flavour! eating maggie mee doesn't actually mean that i'm too busy studying to go out and buy food, it's just that i'm lazy and don't wanna trouble others to get them for me =X so maggie mee's the answer to quick and convenient food for lazy people like me!

okay, it's back to webcast..

how i wish that i love watching webcasts the same way as how i love watching tv.. =(

to AJ: if you don't like what i'm blogging about or how i do things and the way i live my life, DON'T BOTHER READING THEM.
i'm tired of being affected by whatever you tag and please let my friends off.

"Definitely, Maybe."

2008-04-22T00:10:00.004+08:00

"Definitely, Maybe" was simply AMAZING.
the story line was just so nice.
It had a number of interesting twists to it which had me thinking of what's going to happen next,
who he's going to fall in love with,
who he'll marry,
and who he'll be with in the end.
Oh, and the lead actor was so charming.
and that little girl(his daughter in the show) was so witty, pretty and cute!
i love the show.
it was so so so so nice..
it's not the typical love story you've watched umpteen times in the movies,
it's something out of the box,
something refreshing.
so watch it when you have the time! =)

anyway, i met joseph at starbucks to study at about 4.15pm... read through the cosmetics portions of notes and everything was so foreign. BUT, i managed to read finish the whole stack(it's not a lot actually) of notes during that 3+hours in starbucks. the thing is, i don't think i can remember any of it when i wake up tml morning.. oh gosh. and i was telling joseph then i'm contemplating going back home this week to study cuz there are too many distractions in hall.. should i?? still thinking about it..
then we headed for dinner at 8.15 and caught the show at nine, before heading back to hall again.
All in all, the show made my night.
=)

"i kept the book all these years, cuz it's what i have left of you"
--- it was soo sweeet

oh, and i just realised that joseph is one of the rare few (yan guang too) who makes effort to book cinema tickets just so we wouldn't have to miss the show at times when we are late to buy tickets and have to change movies cuz there aren't anymore seats or really bad seats left for us! or maybe he's just lazy to queue up to buy tickets! hahas! =X and it's not only once, but like everytime we watch he does the booking! which means, i didn't have to queue with him too! hahas! okay. i'm just plain lazy.

4 more days to the start of the examinations =(

a night with him!

2008-04-20T17:53:00.006+08:00

went dinner with him yesterday and watched "the hottie and the nottie" starring paris hilton!

was quite alright but some parts were pretty sick i must say!

anyway, before dinner we walked for a bit from cine to lido trying to find a movie with a right timing, and in the end, we caught the movie at lido.. he actualy likes cine better as the seats are more comfy and the floors are carpeted but i kinda liked lido more(i don't really know why =X).. BUT, the theatre we were allocated to yesterday was smelllllyyy! think we should stick to cine the next time!

and.. while walking to wisma for dinner, we camhored a little and he started taking super awful pics of me which shows my double chin(i know, i'm fat). One of which was the ultimate horrible and terrible one which i begged him to delete and he reluctantly agreed in the end(after spending the whole dinner time asking him to let me delete)! you'll vomit blood if u see that picture of me i tell you! =S

here's the only together picture we took!

and he's always so proud of his megawatt smile showing his darlie white perfect teeth! any vacancies in toothpaste commercials?? =P

after dinner, we headed to wheelocks to get dessert! he actually suggested cedele cuz the desserts there apparently do not contain any trans fat(in our attempt to eat nice food and still not feel guilty about our, okay my, increasing waistline), but it didn't have the one he said was nice, so we headed to the big 0 instead!

had 2 pretty cakes! can't remember their names but both were really fantabulous!!! the right one(the one which is rounded) is actually durian cake with chocolate covering it!! was really yummy!! the durian and chocolate blended so well together!! will ask mummy to get it the next time she wants to get something for family gatherings! and the left heart shaped one was some chocolate fudge cake, it's sweet and not something you'll get sick of after eating for awhile! we were so full by the time we finished our desserts!!

oh, look at how messy an eater he is! *shakes head* hahas!

after the desserts, we headed to watch our movie, was a little late though =X and after that, it was back to hall again!!

oh, and just something to share, he showed me this email sent by his men in the army which i thought was pretty true(some lars..)!

9 Words Women Use

1) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up

2) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it!!!

5) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing)

6) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7) Thanks : A women is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome.

8) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying the F word

9) Don't worry about it, I've got it : Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "What's wrong?" For the woman's response refer to #3.

pretty interesting right?? =P

oh, and he was so sweet to sneak into my room while i was in church today to leave some biscuits for my study week ahead as well as his green comfy jacket to keep me warm for movie with joseph tml!! thanks dear!!

exams' starting in less than a week and i haven't started!! oh dear!! =X

lunch!

2008-04-18T17:33:00.003+08:00

went for lunch with dave todayy! this boy kinda assumed that i was going to pang seh him.. BUT.. I DIDN'T! =D
we headed to vivo's thai express after my maths tutorial! i had my phad thai while he had some curry with rice.. and.. we shared a plate of mango salad.. the salad was pretty nice! wasn't as sour as i thought it would be...
was pretty long since i last saw and talked to him.. but, he's one of the rare people in SOC whom i can comfortably chat with (dave, do u feel honoured?? hahas!)
anyway.. we talked and ate, and as usual, i have this tendency to talk and laugh so loudly that people around would look =X BUT i realised when i talked loudly, he would be talking as loudly just that my pitch is higher hence more noticeable.. hahas.. oh this reminds me of the times we were screaming so loudly at each other in the car last time!!
oh. this reminds me again, YOU(dave), please SLOW DOWN AT BENDS, SERIOUSLY. you're the fastest driver on bends(of those cars i've sat in) so far!
it's good that u no longer ride! Why?? cuz..
1. you safe petrol = save the environment
2. you save money = more lunch with sue lynn
3. you're safe and sound! = sue lynn has one more person to crap with! =)
so PLEASE don't get a bike anymore!
oh, and.. dave says that multiply should be pronounced as "mor-ti-ply" and not "mull-ti-ply"..
and thus "multi-task" should be "mor-ti-task".. really mehs?? anyway.. we spent some time crapping about it.. BUT DAVE, i think i'm still right! hahahhas!
after that, we went to giant for a short look to see if there's anything i had to get when i caught him staring at the cover-girl of "MAXIM"
hahas.. opps! did i just ruin your reputation?? =X
and dave : maybe we can have lunch soon again! and i know i still owe u pow sing! hahs! =)

The day before

2008-04-16T09:02:00.005+08:00

yesterday,
i skipped lectures,
vacuumed, cleaned, tidied my room,
did laundry,
changed bedsheets,
organised my wardrobe,
and sat in front my my computer from 7.45pm to 1am trying to solve my lab problem,
but still didn't manage to pass the last two test cases =(
during that approximately 5 hrs,
i didn't move about,
go to the toilet,
chat on msn,
sms,
talk on the phone,
blog/read blogs,
listen to music.
only short chats with kuma and andee when they came up.
AND
i still didn't manage to pass the last 2 test cases.
oh gosh
and i still call myself a computing student!
the thing is,
i don't think many people found this week's lab hard.
guess most people could pass all the test cases =(
guess that's why i was pretty disappointed with myself.
actually,
i find programming interesting..
BUT
i just don't have enough brains and patience to accomplish whatever i want to do i guess
oh well,
i'll just have to work harder than normal people,
stop being lazy,
and stop procrastinating.
oh, and one thing about coursemarker.
why can't they just give us all the test cases instead of 8 out of 10!
it's like offering a tree branch to a drowning person and not pulling him out of the water =S
well.. if they did provide the last 2 test cases,
i would have tried to find out what's wrong with my program and tried harder to get the full marks(i wish)!
oh well,
it's OVER.
NO.MORE.PROGRAMMING.THIS.SEM.
hopefully.. and i mean seriously hopefully..
i'll pass my cs1102, and get over with it!
then i won't have to suffer again next sem.
and this brings me to the point,
I.NEED.TO.START.STUDYING.
oh, and i forgot to mention,
i watched death note and death note 2 on the internet yesterday too!=P
during the times when i was supposed to be in lectures =X
they were interesting!!
i pretty liked their plots,
especially the parts where L and Light were always trying to outsmart each other.
and i must say that they're really intelligent.
they think way far and ahead,
of what the other party is going to do,
or how he's going to execute the next plan.
nice!
i wanted to watch the part 3 online but couldn't find it and decided that it was enough for the day(to make myself feel less guilty for skipping lectures =X)
okay, and i'm NOT going to skip lectures today! =D
i think this blog is getting boring without any pictures.
will place some pictures after exams! =)

it's finally over!

2008-04-14T23:26:00.003+08:00

i was dreading the meeting since last friday..
well.. at least everything's over..
i'll put a FULLSTOP. to it!
i'll learn my lesson and move on!
yes i will.

he's coming down soon to pick me up for supper.
i'm seriously fat.
i need to go on a diet or i'll soon be obese.
as usual, i'm going to look really bad from my swollen/red eyes, puffy cheeks and messy hair.
and because of the irritation in my right eye, i'll have to wear specs =(
hope he doesn't get a shock when he sees me. =X
or maybe he's already used to this look of mine.
opps! =X
to him : sorry that your girlfriend gets uglier overtime =X

I.NEED.TO.GO.ON.A.DIET.

for now!

2008-04-13T22:30:00.004+08:00

SATURDAY

daddy came to pick me up from hall after my practical exam! mummy, him and i then headed to yum cha at chinatown for dim sum lunch before heading to ang mo kio to choose curtains for my room and get groceries for the next few weeks in hall.. exams' starting and i don't think i'll be going home that often, so the groceries will have to last me for at least 3 weeks!
after all the shopping for necessities at amk hub, we headed home and not long after, out for dinner again. we went to chomp chomp at serangoon gardens! was craving for food there so daddy brought us there for dinner! thanks daddy! =D
after dinner, i watched tv, lazed around and waited for him to come pick me up!
that night was a dress-down night organised by him!
apparently we were supposed to dress in a very unglam fashion =X
so there he was in a collared casual tee with his white OCS pants, while i wore an orange tee from open house + aj fbts + ugly specs + messy hair. and he said he looked worse... where got!!
so according to his itinery, our first stop was to the prata place at mandai.. BUT it closed by the time we reached (it closes at 12am and we reached at 11.55pm =( ).. so we headed to the one at casuarina.. BUT.. it was closed too =( nd finally, it was back to the 24 hours jalan kayu prata! we had a kosong each and shared a strawberry prata.. the ones at the prata place still tastes much better =( oh well!
the 2nd stop was the seletar dam! we had to digest the prata so he drove us there for a stroll! that place is really nice i tell you! though the drive to the dam was dark, misty and scary, the dam was soooo nice and it feels like some exclusive place cuz not many knows about it! we've been there once before and it was more windy and had lesser people the previous time.. so we walked, talked and when the food went down a little, we headed to the 3rd stop!
durians!!
my favourite!! =D
he brought us to geylang using his friend's super cool handphone navigator! it not only shows you the route to take, it tells you things like "after 400m, turn left" and "turn left here"! so cool right!
there were a few durian stalls and we choose the further end one.. but according to my daddy, we didn't know how to buy durians.. i was telling him that we bought a small durian that only had 3 pieces in it and cost $18 and he said "so expensive??" hahas.. except for the part that the durian shell had worms in it(yikes! was really gross!), the fruit itself was not bad! =)
and i ate 2 =X
he kept looking at me eat the 2nd durian, i think he just wanted to see how unglam i can be! =X
i've officially added durian into the list of food items not to be eaten in front of guys! =S
then he drove us to some alley to see some scenes(in geylang, so maybe u could make a guess what we went to check out!) i haven't seen before.. it was indeed an eye-opener.. quite scary though!
and finally, we headed home! wished i could have more time with him =(

SUNDAY

went for brunch - pow sing chicken rice, with family and headed to church!
but before church, it told daddy about the seletar dam that he brought me to and daddy decided to check that place out too!
i think the whole place looks better in the morning.. it looked so serene, green and peaceful.. if i have the money, i think i'd like to stay in one of those colonial looking bungalows there next time!
and i realised just this morning that i've been to the country club overlooking the dam before! was during tim's birthday party which was held at the country club 3/4 years back i think, when he brought me to look at the golf course overlooking the dam! i could still remember how beautiful it looked from there!
daddy drove around to explore the area a little then sent carmen and i to the bus-stop to head to church!
after church we had steamboat dinner( with kor as well! =D) together with some of my favourite dishes at home before daddy sent me back to hall again =( nothing beats home-cooked food with the whole family sitting together having dinner!
i'm starting to miss home again =(

"i'll never know how much it costs,
to see my sins upon that cross"

Surprise!

2008-04-11T15:50:00.003+08:00

He was such a sweetheart!
he left camp early this morning,
and appeared at my door
in his suave army uniform and boots,
with breakfast from macdonalds,
and not to forget the 90 calories breakfast bar! =)
BUT
he saw how horrible i looked,
in my unglam sleepwear,
messy hair,
and puffy eyes.
he saw how messy and dirty my room was =(
he watched me do my hair,
helped me pack my bag,
and had to rush back to camp again,
while i left for lecture =(
anyhow,
he was just so sweeet =)
and he made my day!
loves! =D

Prata

2008-04-11T01:49:00.003+08:00

just got back from prata with calvin.
feeling much better now..
thanks so much calvin, for going to supper so far away(well, not exactly that far but we had to walk quite a distance =X) with me!
you helped me to keep my mind of it for that while.
and i haven't laughed that much and that loudly for some time.
ya, unglam i know, but thank you!
and though the prata doesn't taste as nice as the one from the prata place,
you were great company =)
oh, and i got to drink my bubble tea too =)
these are what you call comfort food.
food that are sinful but makes you feel better, somehow.
oh, and really sorry that you had to see 'that'..
still feeling quite bad about it =X
but it was quite funny how we became in the same boat after that.. hahs.
and, you should thank me for not allowing you to get alcohol!
it's bad for health!
see! what a great friend you've got who's concerned about your health.. hahs
yep, we should go for supper more often and crap and catch up with each other..
hopefully we won't be consoling each other the next time, but rather, share stories of joy!
oh, and gossips too! considering how phantom i've became, you're to keep me updated okay??
and hopefully you'll be able to successfully wake me up in the morning later for breakfast!
i'll TRY to wake up lars.. BUT in the event i don't.. erm.. sorry!! =X
oh, we should both STOP thinking so much like how we agreed to.
else... we'll bian cheng wu gui!
hahahs.
I. WILL. STOP. THINKING. ABOUT. IT.

i wish.

2008-04-10T18:14:00.005+08:00

i wish...
that only for today u didn't have to stayover in the army.
that only for today you'd be here.
that only for today you'd lend me your shoulders to cry on.
that only for today you'd tell me that it's going to be okay.
that only for today you'd bring me to a place where i won't have to see anyone else.
nor face anyone.
nor answer to anyone.
that only for today you'd bring me to some place i could hide.
i could sob.
so loudly that even the nearest person can't hear.
some place that doesn't remind me of reality.
that only for today you'd buy me french fries.
and i'll eat it all forgetting and not feeling guilty about my diet plan.
i'm not lamenting at the fact that you can't be here.
because i know you'd sprint here if you could.
but you're the first person i thought of.
the only person i need now.
this is how great an impact u made in my life.
i will be better, in time.
i really hope i can get over it as soon as possible.
then i can better concentrate on my studies.
and on the better things in life.
god, please help me to move on..

happy birthday joseph!

2008-04-09T23:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSEPH!! =D
you know what?
it was such a coincidence that keith and gang bought the EXACT same cake for joseph as the one i bought! so he had to eat and blow candles of the same cake twice! hahas! but the cake was not bad=) hoped you liked it joseph! oh, and.. i know i wrote it in the note already.. but.. thanks for being my friend! =)

and.. special thanks to ce ying for leaving chocolates at my door just so to cheer me up, and calvin, who talked to me and sent me the email.. thank you!

i met him today!! =D thought i wouldn't be able to but this boy skipped some army test just to meet me despite me trying to persuade him not to for almost an hour last night!
anyhow, he's just sweeeet =)
and... he helped me carry joseph's cake the whole time! (i had to write this cuz he forced me to =X)
hahas!

i met mummy today for a hair cut and went for eye-brow waxing.. yes, i know i'm vain.. hahas!
and he did not realise that i cut my hair UNTIL i told him!! =( but ya, i guess my hair style/length didn't change much except that it's lighter.. my hair grows and gets thick so fast that it becomes a hassle to go for frequent haircuts to ensure that it doesn't get heavy, frizzy and awful again!

i've got a meeting at 8am tomorrow and havent done my part yet.. =(
and i so look forward to going home this weekend! i miss mummy and daddy and my brother's in reservist =(

a short one

2008-04-08T21:13:00.005+08:00

we finally handed up our perfume and cosmetics project yesterday! finally! =)
this means one less thing to worry about!
one and a half week more to study break and exams commences!
gosh.. it's all happening so fast...
like my friend was saying.. "i haven't learnt anything and it's time for exams!"
perhaps it only applies for people like us who slack a lot..
opps =X
i'm so going to start my study plan.. next week!
when that thing is all settled, i WILL concentrate on my studies..
HOPEFULLY... i'll do better this sem..
actually.. i just plan to pass my cs1102.. =X that's my main concern cuz i don't think i'd like to do it and continue suffering in it next sem! that module is so hard, time-consuming, depression-causing and brain-wrecking i tell you! so god bless me!
and after the sem, i'll try to find a job to replenish my about to be depleted bank account, and at the same time be involved in hall holiday committees
actually i'm not as involved in hall as people outside may think..
i join enough activities to keep me in hall for the following year cuz my home is so far away and travelling would be a hassle..
nevertheless, i enjoy hall stay cuz the people there are fun, nice and really helpful.. not to forget, i get to enjoy the privacy that i don't get when i'm home..
at home, i share a room with my cousin.. not that it's bad.. just that i would appreciate some personal space at times.. so.. hall's the answer to it cuz i get to have my own(though pretty small) room! =D
okayy! that's all for now.. going to my block's senior's farewell(only for half an hour i think =X)..
hahas!
oh and i guess i won't be able to see him this week =(

just another day

2008-04-06T21:18:00.004+08:00

nothing much..
met him two days in a row,
took me for a car ride yesterday..
went to west coast park's macdonalds drive-thru,
to get my iced milo first.
i like drive thrus,
don't know why, hahs.
i like car rides too,
especially during late nights.
we listen to our favourite songs,
talk and no one else can hear,
look at passing vehicles,
find out new hunts,
hold hands,
at times,
wind down windows,
blast music,
feel the wind,
and still be safe,
enclosed,
protected,
in the car.
went to kent ridge park,
then mount faber.
it feels nice,
overlooking the waters,
buildings,
vehicles,
and people as small as ants..
it feels like everything's in order,
that everything's calm.
maybe cuz it's late at night,
and everyone's home,
sound asleep.
oh no,
i'm missing him already.
he's been around me so much,
that it feels weird not seeing him today..
guess i should cease being so dependant,
so sticky,
to him.
went to church,
god spoke through miraculous ways..
after crying at his altar,
confessing my sins(yes, i know i do have many sins),
rededicating my life to him,
somehow i feel more in peace..
i miss home,
but i don't dare to tell daddy about 'it',
so i won't know how not to feel guilty when i'm home..
but i will tell him,
when everything is settled..
to people who have been concerned,
who asked,
who encouraged,
who told me that everything's going to be alright,
thank you!
i'll tide through all these,
bravely,
like a woMAN. =)

p.s edmund: thanks for taking time to help me do up the bottle this morning!!

emo-ing again

2008-04-05T19:45:00.004+08:00

i don't know why but i just can't stop thinking about it
everytime i'm alone,
when it rains,
or when i listen to some emo song,
i'll start tearing..
i wish i wasn't that dumb,
that i didn't assume that much,
that i wasn't that careless,
that i took more responsibility in it..
it's like how you often regret,
about how you dislike and not listen to your grandma's nagging only after she passes away,
about how you didn't study for exams only after you failed,
about how you don't cherish life only after you know that your days are numbered..
though we know,
through experiences of our own or others,
that we should live everyday to the fullest,
to live a life without regrets,
we can't help doing things that somehow makes us regret,
and it pains,
it hurts,
so much...
people might say, "just take it as a lesson learnt"
but it's a really huge lesson,
that it's suffocating me..
things will get better,
i hope..

just some bad times..

2008-04-04T00:50:00.002+08:00

too many things happened in just one week..
like people having cancer would ask god,
"why me?"
i so want to ask god too..
but i know,
that god has his reasons..
maybe these trials are for me to learn some lessons,
be stronger,
and live everyday for it is.
and not to worry,
for tomorrow has its own worries..
was it because i didn't go to church last sunday,
or was it because i don't read the bible everyday
that god didn't bless me this week
i know however
that god's grace is sufficient
to pull me through all these

him : thank you for being there to hear my whinings, sobs, and everything else
SL peeps : i'm sorry, really..
eric : thanks so much for standing up for me..
AJ : thanks for giving me a chance to reflect

Sheares Hall Family Day

2008-03-29T16:48:00.009+08:00

yesterday was family day!!! was so much fun!! =D the turn-out wasn't as great as we had expected, which was a good and bad thing.. good : we had more share of food! bad : i think more people = more fun.. hahas!!

the theme for this year's family day : Kampung Sheares! =D

after finishing the preparations for family day in the morning at 3.15am, the sheareslink peeps met at 8.15am in the sheares hall lobby! we prepared drinks, hung up last minute decorations and set up the reception area and the whole event started at 9am!

SH = Sheares Hall!! we - the 4 girls you see, blew, tied and placed up the balloons! so nice rightt?? =D

there were so many things around for us to play! but i think i was busy eating more than anything else =X

there was the ice cream man scooping traditional ice-creams - it was so yummy that i had several servings of it! (i won't tell how many! hahas!)

there was the muah chee and tu tu kueh aunties (which i didn't get to take pictures of =( ) - i only managed to try the muah chee which was okay..

there was also the candy floss machine - which didn't have as much business as the rest but was free flow and didn't require coupons to redeem.

and there were many many game stations!!

there was the dunking machine..

Hao Jie : Before

Hao Jie : after! hahas!!

the gladiator game....

Calvin and Hian Yi : Guess who won?? hahas!

and who said girls couldn't fight...

the redeo booth... joyce's so brave!!! i didn't dare to try it at all! =X

and the jumping thing which was so much fun!! you just bounce and bounce and bounce! hahs!

then there was the bingo game which was held 4 times

The bingo board : Cynthia posing for the camera! hahahs!

i played cheat for all the 4 games (by taking a few slips of the bingo paper at each time).. =X

and still didn't manage to win at all!! =(

at about 12pm, Hian Yi and i started folding balloons for the kids around..

i folded a flower for that cute little girl and a dog for her brother!! they were soo cute! hahas! oh, for your information, i only know how to fold dogs, flowers, swords and butterflies =X so their choices were pretty limited! hahas!

then there was the phototaking booth by photo comm!! there were props available too!

we each had a free photo nicely edited and developed on the spot by photo comm! =D

and we continued to camwhore amoung ourselves..

oh! and before i forget... i won a $10 ben and jerry's voucher in one of the 3 lucky draws!! i was actually hoping to win the ipod touch (the first prize for the grand lucky draw, there were 3 lucky draws altogether i think), oh well, at least i won something! =D

after the whole event, the Sheareslink peep stayed back to clear up the place and shift the furnitures back to where they came from, followed by a short debrief..
then i quickly washed up, and waited for him to drive me out to dinner then home! =)

hours before Sheares Hall Family Day

2008-03-29T02:47:00.006+08:00

later's family day!! can't wait!! hope it'll be a success though.. hahas! shall take some pictures of the balloons we placed up for decorations and post it tomorrow! it's super nice!! *smiles proudly!* hahs! anyway, he came over today to watch the stardust thing at the NUS central forum and sweetly agreed to fetch my friend and i to sheng shiong for some last minute purchase of scrap books for the family day! thank god for him or xin yi and i would have to take a bus and rush there.. thank you!! =) oh! and he bought me an Anna Sui cosmetic mirror! =D (just so that i will have fewer unglam moments i guess... hahas!)

it's pretty blur here.. the best shot that i took.. but.. it's really pretty and has a butterfly at the front! love it so much!! =D

then we headed to macdonalds to have supper and played lame games like 'which breakfast set has the highest total fats/sodium' etc and it went on and on! we laughed pretty loudly that the people at the tables beside kept looking! =X hahas! oh, and he keeps winning can!! i'm not going to play the you-do-i-say anymore! please remind me cuz i can't seem to win!! =( then we took a short walk at the park before heading back to hall whre i had to continue doing up the decorations for the family day..

since this is a special day...

something i penned =), to you-know-who :

10 things i love about you

I love the way you’re close beside , when I wake up first in the morning
I love the way you cuddle me tight, before I fall asleep
I love the way you accommodate me, when my schedules are ever-changing
I love the way you text me before sleeping, just so I know I’m in your mind
I love the way you take pictures of us, even when it can be embarrassing
I love the way you drop by at night, to ensure I won’t go hungry
I love the way you drive me round as it gets me all excited
I love the way you hold my hands, and keep me safe beside
I love the way you pop by my hall, to give me mini-surprises
I love the way you’re ever so sweet, that I now can’t live without...

it may not be a perfect poem, but i've placed my heart into it! so.. hope you'll like it =)

*mummy's birthday's on sunday and i haven't got time to get her present!!! =X

save save save

2008-03-28T17:27:00.002+08:00

my army boy = ostrich egg

hahahas!!

opps!! =X please don't kill me =X

anyway... i called daddy today to ask him to give me my allowance in advance for next month.. and he said "you arh.. asking for your allowance earlier and earlier.. do u know i gave you more money this month? use finish already huh? "

opps! =X i've been using more and more money these days.. also dunnoe how come.. it's time to save so that i can go genting!! else according to him, it'll happen in 2011 =S so saving starts... next month!! and HOPEFULLY, no more splurging on clothes and food!

My room

2008-03-27T20:39:00.011+08:00

My room's getting messier and dirtier each day cuz i'm just plain lazy to clean and tidy it up!

i need to pack and tidy again before stayover comes!! =X SECC(sheares exposure camp committee)'s going around helping people clean rooms(which only includes the vacuuming of floor and cleaning of fan) at $5 and i'm one of the 'cleaners', so he says that i should pay myself $5 to clean my own room =S

My cosy corner 1 week AGO...

My cosy corner 1 week AFTER..

My neat and tidy bed 1 week AGO..

My now untidy bed which i'm still lazy to pack 1 week AFTER..

My messy table as usual..

My my, looks like i'm goona have a long day packing my room tomorrow!! how i wish i can import my maid from home =(

oh, and for those who didn't know, i've got many many things in hall!

tv - from my ah gong's house , stereos - which my brother bought for me for my birthday last year , huge printer - which my brother passed down after using for 4 years , a real(and i think withering) christmas tree - from him , my still really nice table height christmas tree which i totally adore - from the person whom you saw in my second post , aplenty cushions in various sizes - some kooped from home, some bought , a fish tank containing REAL AND SURVIVING fishes - from my buaya, calvin and additional fishes contributed by ce ying when a few died later on =X , one tall and one table side lamp -from ikea when dave accompanied me there and fetched me back in his bike(don't tell my daddy please =X) , pretty red and white light decorations - a gift from joseph who sweetly remembered that i liked red and white when he went to thailand , guitar - which i wanted to learn during the break after sem one but still haven't got anyone to help me string , big head bear stuff toy - from yan guang a day before valentines , a huge mickey mouse stuff toy(which is now hidden in my cardboard as it was collecting dust) - given by eric when i was secondary 2 , a picture of myself - drawn by zhi gen(he's so talented!! an artist in the making!!) , my whole collection of earings - which fills one and a half earing stands so far , i moved almost my whole wardrobe from home only leaving some to wear when i'm going out form home and the more formal dresses , my collection of bags thus far - still increasing i hope!=D , 2 bouquet of flowers - which i haven thrown cuz i can't bare to , and most importantly.. my gladys!! - for those who knows who she is.. hahas!

plus study materials and other jah pa lang stuffs

my daddy claims that he's got to rent a lorry when i'm moving back home after this semester.. hahahs! oppps! =X

actually my room has everything i need EXCEPT for a fridge which i wanted to move in last semester but hesitated to cuz i didn't know when they're going to do the spot check(we had to pay to place a fridge in our room and i didn't want to cuz it's pretty expensive! okay.. i'm a cheaterbug.. =X) was hoping that they'll do the spot check in the first sem so that i can happilly move the fridge in this sem, BUT... they were so smart to do the spot check only this mid sem!! so i had to use the common level fridge instead =(

okay! that's all for my room!! =D

2008-03-27T01:47:00.001+08:00

the perfume and cosmetic's 80 MCQs are driving me nuts!!

An okay day

2008-03-25T22:49:00.006+08:00

Today was an okay day except that i didn't manage to jog, which i intented to..
had a meeting with the graduating seniors regarding the seniors' farewell video and felt pretty bad as i called for the meeting a tat too late! wanted to get it done earlier but today was the only day that most seniors were free.. many of them had their thesis due and others had tests coming up.. not that they weren't coorperative during the meeting just that we kept side-tracking and so the meeting dragged longer than i expected it to! sorry seniors!! =X
but, on a sidenote, thanks a million to the seniors who came down for the meeting despite your busy schedules! i initially thought the meeting would have only me with the SMG people cuz i was afraid that the seniors would not be bothered to come down.. still, most of them came(some after my constant pestering)! thanks so so much for coming down and making my job easier!
the filming's going to be on monday night and i know that everyone's busyyy.. so... hope that it'll be done fast and nicely!
and to the SMG people, really sorry for the late meeting and that you'll have to rush the editing!! =X sorry!!!
hopefully everything goes well!!
oh!! and the Sheareslink people gave out fliers for the family day and seniors' farewell today!! so... to all shearites..... please come down for both events! it'll be fun, fun, fun! =D

and.. someone sent me an email which i thought was nice to share!

"I asked the Lord to bless you as I prayed for you today,
to guide you and protect you as you go along your way.
His love is always with you,
His promises are true,
and when we give Him all our cares,
you know He will see us through.
So when the road you're traveling on seems difficult at best..
Just remember I'm here praying and God will do the rest. "

*oh, and i told jason that i'll dedicate a post to him IF i see him around on family day! hahas!

can't wait for the week to end!!

Oral Presentation

2008-03-24T16:08:00.006+08:00

today we had an individual oral presentation lasting 3 minutes long each! i started on my script only at 12am this morning and had to rush rush and rush! woke up earlier to practice my 'speech' and thought i could remember the bulk of it since i've recited them quite a no. of times.. was reciting it even while walking from hall to SOC, think the people who walked past me must have thought that i'm a weird person who talks to herself, oh well! BUT i was so nervous that i kinda read it all from the piece of paper i wrote my script on. I kept laughing cuz the tutor kept smiling each time i looked up from my script to TRY to maintain eye contact with him despite having to constantly read off that piece of paper! well maybe he was trying to make me less tensed but IT HAD THE OPPOSITE EFFECT! gosh...
well, was pretty funny though. my topic was on how to become a more effective SOC student. what an irony cuz i'm not even one!
and the brainy me came up with 3 P's :
Prepare for lectures - by reading notes beforehand
Pay attention during lectures
Practice! - past sem papers
and guess what! smart me =S thought of them all but have practiced none of the above SO FAR. i print lecture notes AFTER lectures, fall alseep or stone during lectures, and burn my nights before the exams watching webcasts such that there's no time for me to practice any papers.
i wonder how i'll do this semester, looks like i've got a lot to catch up on!
*PHEW! at least it's over! i was so nervous this morning that i purposely stood behind the table while doing my oral presentation so that no one(i hope) could see my legs shivering. hahahas! yes, and though i usually talk a lot(to my friends) during tutorials, i'm still a generally SHY person.. hahas! okay! one down, many more to go! =( god, bless me in this busy week!!

Oh no!!

2008-03-24T00:06:00.003+08:00

I just realised that i've got sooo many things undone!! =(
Seniors' farewell video
Seniors' farewell marketing stuffs
Perfume and Cosmetics project
Perfume and Cosmetics individual assignment
2301's pop quiz

sounds pretty little?? but it's a lot of work to do!! *stress!!
and there's so many upcoming events!!
wed - collect seniors' farewell stuffs with the marketing pple
thurs - perfume and cosmetics individual assignment due!
fri - pop quiz due + month! =)
sat - Sheares hall family day!
sun - mummy's birthday!
following wed - seniors' farewell!

and on top of those i still have hall committee meetings plus cleaning rooms project by secc!!
oh no. and why am i still blogging!?!?!

Fulfilling Day! =)

2008-03-23T11:09:00.009+08:00

Went shopping with mummy yesterday! =) there's this city-shopper bus(578, if i'm not wrong, which means, i may be wrong =X) that we take more often recently when we wanna head to town! it's basically like a cab cuz it travels the expressway and takes us only about 15-20 min to reach Orchard, but the bad thing is that it costs each of us $3.60, which actually explains the no. of passengers on board.. oh well, all for convenience and to save time!

mummy and i then headed to Tangs to have our lunch(at the basement where we stood and ate) and met this cute lady! she was alone and joined our table, then we started talking! she's was soo funny! hahahs! she's some newspaper editor in charge of headlines and just moved to Singapore recently, and according to her, she buys TWO PAIRS OF SHOES EVERY WEEK!! goodness.. i wonder how she stores her shoes.. it's really SO MANY! wish i can afford that in future too! and then we started talking about where to shop and eat! haahhas!! typical ladies! and mummy and her were exchanging places to buy nice and comfy shoes while the not-so-much-of-a-shoe-fanatic me continued to eeaat!

how nice if we could always meet people like her and hook up random conversations.. i actually enjoy meeting random people and talking to them cuz i feel that it's really nice meeting people of different professions and backgrounds and learning about them too! what an interesting lunch mummy and i had! =D

then we headed upstairs(still at Tangs) to shop! was waiting for my mummy who was spending ages in the changing room when i saw my brother and his girlfriend! Catherine cut her hair! soo pretty! hahas!! but what a coincidence! and i was grinning when i saw them while my brother was smirking when he saw me, as usual, hahas! think he doesn't want his irritating sis to continue bugging them and interrupt their date! are all brothers like that!?!

then we went to topshop and mummy bought me new leggings which hoops round your feet! =) actually she looks better in it than me(i asked her to try it too so we could share, tip : when the SHARE word comes in, it'll be easier to get her to pay for it =P) cuz her thighs are way smaller, how i wish i could have thighs like hers =(

then we headed home as joseph was going to pick me up later in the evening!

promised to accompany him to get his sis's wedding present! how sweet of him! we headed to city hall and he decided to park at marina square which was a wrong choice as it was awfully packed! we went round and round in the carpark desperately looking for space but to no avail !so after 15-20 min, we decided to look for other carparks and his cashcard had $2 plus deducted for nothing! so he drove to suntec city's carpark which has so many empty lots! should have gone there earlier instead!! see lah! bu ting lao ren yan, chi kui zai yan qian(cuz i had actually asked him to go there before that)! ahhas!

we decided to shop first as neither of us were hungry and entered all the jewellery shops in suntec(they were all along this stretch on the first floor so it was fairly easy for us to find every one of them). We went in, looked, I TRIED(yes, i was a model for him, ahhas!), and compared! finally we both decided on the one from SK, was a bracelet cuz he decided that most relatives would give pendants.. it was $599!! wow! i suspect that he has si fang qian! ahhaas!! people like me have no savings and use every cent of my allowance every month! =(

after that we headed to Fish'n' co for dinner! we both ate new york fish and chips! delicious! it was a long time since i last went to fish and co! and i especially like those mints they give after meals as it wasn't that 'la'! i heard from a friend that her friend actually bought a large packet of mints from them before and it didn't come in cheap! maybe i should ask them if they still do sell it and how much it would cost next time! anyway...thanks joseph for the meal!! =)

last stop, Menotti, again! i just can't get enough of it! but by the time we reached there they only had the tiramisu left, thankfully it was nice so we didn't waste our trip there! ahhas! unfortunately i wasn't able to get him to try the chocolate cake(the one i mentioned in the last post)! another time then!

tiramisu! nice, moist with a tinge of coffee taste!

headed home after that! joseph, please remember how we exited so you won't need to loop and loop again next time! haahas!!

I. NEED. TO. EXCERCISE.

Eat, Eat and Eat

2008-03-21T14:34:00.010+08:00

met him at city hall for dinner yesterday! was SUPPOSED to have something healthy and soupy but MY(yes, my) craving for pasta led us to New York, New York at citylink! went to the AMK hub one weeks ago with my family and found out that the pastas they served were actually not bad(tried a few other main courses other times which didn't turn out to be that great)!

camera SHY, hahas!!

the green apple flavoured candy floss we got for free! =)

mine!! it's called.. something carbonara with roasted chicken

his! it's called something tomato something with roasted chicken! it's basically almost the same as mine except that the sauce is different.. he claims that his is healthier, oh well!

then HE wanted to try out the desserts at menotti(it's at raffles city shopping centre) so i had no choice but to accompany! hahas! it was pretty packed when we entered but we still managed to get seats almost immediately(that's the good thing about looking for seats in small groups!).

SOFFIATO - warm dark chocolate cake with chocolate chip icecream.

it was fabulous! they warmed the chocolate cake before serving and thus it was so chocolatey and moist, melts in your mouth!

i don't know the name of this, but according to the lady who recommended, it was some white chocolate cheese cake. was not bad, but but but, the suprise came when more than half the cake was gone and we saw an oval piece of chocolate in the middle! i poked it and guess what! chocolate oozed out! the chocolate liquid was pretty bitter(you'll like it if you fancy dark chocolate) yet somehow refreshing! oh, and according to him, HIS oreo cheesecake tastes better! hahahahs! okay lars.. can't compare, different taste altogether =P

know what's the best thing?? the desserts are all one-for-one! according to the waitress(who so happens to come from AJ, the 06'batch, and surprisingly found him familier, hahas!), all desserts are one-for-one after 10pm EVERYDAY! and she suggests that we go on weekdays cuz there'll be a wider selection of desserts left after 10pm!

and so our total bill summed up to less than $10! =D so, if you happen to be in the city hall area and have nothing to do after shopping for the whole day, head down to menotti!! fantasitc desserts in a great place! nice to catch up with friends or have dates there too! =)

and after all the eating.... we camwhored the way back to hall! =)

to someone

2008-03-21T10:19:00.002+08:00

morning!! before i post some pictures taken yesterday... i was reading someone's blog this morning and inferred that i had something to do with it..

to you : guess you called some time ago(as it was an unknown number) but i missed it.. i really hope that you're doing fine.. for someone who never fails to treat me food from nice places.. please do eat proper meals and take good care of yourself okay? yes, you've always been the one encouraging others so there bound to be times when you receive encouragement from others too! i sincerely hope you'll do fine.. enjoy your semester there as it's a rare chance whereby you can meet new people, experience a new culture and learn more things! i don't really know how i should explain myself or what i should explain.. but.. i just wanna let you know that you've been a really great friend and i appreciated all you've done! i know it's easier said than done, but please please don't let me affect you okay?

Yays!!

2008-03-20T14:11:00.003+08:00

Guess what?? i successfully completed today's sit-in lab!!!! hahaahs!!!! my first ever completed sit-in lab!! usually yiling and i would just aim to compile.. BUT.. today i managed to complete the whole program with correct outputs!! hahahahs!!! and and and.. i still had time to add comments and make the codes look neater! finally i see some hope in passing my 1102! yays! hahas! *sings* if you're happy and you know you clap your hands! clap clap!
yiling : could see that you're worried, but don't worry! we'll try to pass 1102 together okayy?? =)

i'm so looking forward to dinner tonight! =) yes i know i should stop eating so much but he simply keeps feeding! so if i become obese it'll be his fault! hahas! and i'm finally going home tomorrow.. kinda miss home more these days! oh, my neighbour told me that they installed an lcd tv in the gym, so.. for all that i've eaten and i'm going to eat... gym, here i come!! i usually pick a timeslot that has my favourite drama so that i can jog and watch at the same time! don't know if it works for others, but i tend to be able to jog longer(which means more calories burnt) if i'm glued to the tv! so.. maybe you can try it out! hahahs!

Random

2008-03-19T21:06:00.007+08:00

i was looking at some old pictures (well.. not that old actually) when i saw THIS! hahas! and i had the coutesy not to reveal your face! =P looking at it now.. the pretty cream coloured bag kinda suits you! hahas! please don't kill me if YOU happen to chance upon this blog! =X see! after 3 months.. you're still remembered! =)

First Post! =)

2008-03-19T18:14:00.001+08:00

hahas! I've got a blog!! and all thanks to yiling and lala who taught me how to use/create/edit my blog! =) thanks girls! =D okay.. a computing student who doesn't know how to set-up a blog.. quite diu lian =X
and so.. i skipped lectures today wanting to extend my passport cuz my daddy refuses to discuss anything about going for a holiday UNTIL i get my passport done. but but but, i went to the ICA website and found out that i had to bring along my old and about to be expired passport! it's at home!! =( thank god i haven't gone all the way down to lavender yet! oh well, i shall do it another day! soon i hope, so that i get to go for a holiday! =) it's raining today AGAIN.. a nice day to sleeep!! and tommorow's another sit-in lab. how i dislike sit in labs!! there's insufficient time to think(given a slow functioning brain like mine), too little time to code, no one i can seek help from, it's held in a stressful environment(i hadn't even coded halfway through when a few people had finished their codings and left early the other times!) and i can't seem to get used to the secure shell thing which we have to use to run and compile our programs!! okay, i'm speaking alien language if you don't know about programming, but in short, programming is tough! well, to me at least.. BUT I AM going to get through all the tough programming modules and survive through the next 3 years because i know that God will help me pull through! =) and so i'm ALREADY complaining in my first blog post. i know.. i'm a complain queen.. haahs!
okay!! i shall end!! hopefully this blog doesn't stop here! =)