12:59 AM



wednesday
packing, packing and more packing! me, SWOC, some SECC peeps headed to dempsey road not to have ben and jerry's, nor chill, but to pack 6300 goodie bags!! can you believe it!!! 6300!! so we packed from 3.30pm to 6am! some left at about 11pm to catch the last bus home, i stayed till 3am and the remaining 6/7 people left at 6am! thank god for him or i'll have to try catching a cab home or stay till 6am with them to continue packing the last 1600 bags! i packed so much that my arms were so sore and couldn't get a good night sleep! had to sleep with my chest facing the ceiling or my arms would ache even more if i leaned on either sides =( thank god it's over! oh, and did i mention? all these packing for $1200 for flag!

thursday
went to watch made of honour with him at night! was a pretty nice show i would say, and i think the female lead's so so pretty!!

friday
went to the MINDS school at jurong! was a tiring but somehow enriching experience. i never thought of things like "what if my fetus is detected to have down syndrome? will i abort him/her?", but going to this camp kept me thinking about it. anyway, some information i checked online about these kids :

what is down syndrome : Down syndrome (DS) is a condition in which extra genetic material causes delays in the way a child develops, and often leads to mental retardation. It affects 1 in every 800 babies born. The symptoms of Down syndrome can vary widely from child to child. While some kids with DS need a lot of medical attention, others lead very healthy and independent lives. Though Down syndrome can't be prevented, it can be detected before a child is born.

what causes it : Normally, at the time of conception a baby inherits genetic information from its parents in the form of 46 chromosomes: 23 from the mother and 23 from the father. In most cases of Down syndrome, however, a child gets an extra chromosome - for a total of 47 chromosomes instead of 46. It's this extra genetic material that causes the physical and cognitive delays associated with DS.


what is autism : Autism (sometimes called “classical autism”) is the most common condition in a group of developmental disorders known as the autism spectrum disorders (ASDs). Autism is characterized by impaired social interaction, problems with verbal and nonverbal communication, and unusual, repetitive, or severely limited activities and interests.

what causes it : Scientists aren’t certain what causes autism, but it’s likely that both genetics and environment play a role. Researchers have identified a number of genes associated with the disorder. Studies of people with autism have found irregularities in several regions of the brain. Other studies suggest that people with autism have abnormal levels of serotonin or other neurotransmitters in the brain. These abnormalities suggest that autism could result from the disruption of normal brain development early in fetal development caused by defects in genes that control brain growth and that regulate how neurons communicate with each other. While these findings are intriguing, they are preliminary and require further study. The theory that parental practices are responsible for autism has now been disproved.

anyhow, though they may look and behave differently, it was a pretty fun experience! though it can be really tiring teaching and teaching them how to complete a task, but i guess it taught me to be more patient with others.. and there's this little boy shawn who's really so cute! he always stands beside me(his height about that at my hips), holds my hands and says "i like you" then kisses my hands. so adorable! they weren't as hard to handle as i thought but many often wonder away themselves and you gotta always watch out for them and do regular head-counts.
they're more obedient then some normal primary school kids i would say, like when i tell them "go wash your hands", "go throw the plate ", they'll listen and do it without a sign of disobedience or reluctance. oh, and i had to bathe this 12-year-old girl too! my first time bathing some one else!
left the school at about 10.35 as i didn't want to stay over and he surprised me at bukit batok mrt to send me home!! he was such a sweetheart i tell you, and he bought my favourite and have-been-craving-so-much-for tang yuan from chinatown! because he insisted that i have the tang yuan in the car so that it won't be all soggy when i have it by the time i reach home, we stopped at this carpark and shared the tang yuan =) bliss! =)

saturday
he accompanied me to bukit batok mrt station to meet my friend then head back to the MINDS school early in the morning! =)
camp ended at about 2pm when i rushed home to bathe, change and head to city hall starbucks to collect money + indemnity forms from the campers of Sheares Exposure Camp! after which, me, val, andee and sab met the 18/05 peeps at billy bombers at marina square! it was nice seeing everyone again and catching up!
after which he sent andee, mel, deb and ragen home before sending me home ! he was so sweet to send all of them home =) oh! but one thing to note dear, please remember where you parked your car! hahahs! every time he parks at some huge carpark, i'll try to take note of the level, and section of carpark he parks at and remind him. see!! you can't do without me! =P

sunday
dim sum breakfast with family at junction 8 before heading to city hall carpark again to collect money + indemnity with sab and andee 2:23 PM



been busy these days!
sigh, flag's taking up so much of my time!!!
i shouldn't have joined 2 holiday committees thinking that i'll have more time for my studies next sem.. =(
and because of the two holiday comms, i'm neglecting others..
i feel really bad already but things still aren't going as i hoped..
maybe it's because they're giving more than i am thus hoping to get the same amount back?
but yet they don't pressure me to.
anyone might say to their boy/girlfriends/friends no, it's okay, i'll do anything for you without wanting anything in return, but i guess deep down he/she/they will be in hope that their partner/friends will at least do a little to make him/her/them feel appreciated?
i don't know, they don't say it but i can feel it =(
i don't know if i'm thinking too much, but as much as they may be upset about it, it hurts me too..
you know everytime i say that i wanna do this, to go somewhere with some people, i really want to do so! but things are not always in my control, something crops up, pops out and i can't just neglect it.
i'm sorry.. =(
i seriously think my time management's really bad.
everytime i try to plan for something, something else comes out, and it's really not like i wanted it like that...
more than anything, i'd want to carry out what i planned to initially too..
i guess people around me are getting tired of accomodating my hectic schedule and all..
is it time to stop tiring the people around me?
is it time to let them be free to do whatever they want instead of restricting them to my schedule?
is it time, to let them go?
is it time? 9:49 AM



went for some meeting for the SOC camp coming up today!! was quite okay.. i actually thought it was a pure meeting but ended up playing some ice-breaking games among the GL's.. guess they needed some pple to try out the games! after that SWEET dave,hahas , drove me to vivo to solely get tu tu kueh for my mummy(he's hardly that nice, hahas!), then i accompanied him to have his lunch(yes, he had lunch at 5+pm) and after that he drove me home! and as usual, whenever he drove, we'd shout at each other in the car. hahahs, u can call that stress relieving or him being mean else i would have to yell at him =X anyhow, thanks dave!
okay, out to town with mummy for shopping laterr!! =D 7:26 PM



went canvassing today AGAIN.
=( =( =(
sigh, why did i choose to succumb to my friend's persuasion to join SWOC flag =(
i hate canvassing!
we had to comb the whole industrial estate of Ang Mo Kio to ask for donations,
get chased by big black brown huge barking dogs,
get threatened by office workers
and walk endlessly under the scorching hot sun, and today, rain.
=( =( =(
but oh well,
i agreed to, so there.
well.. i could have picked up a new hobby, learn to play the guitar, get a job blah blah blah instead of waking up at 8am in the morning (and even earlier tml) and head to another day of canvassing..
it's weird that i'm doing it all in the name of charity and i'm not feeling any good about it, AT ALL.
and charity's charity, why must there be competition among halls just to win some stupid shield and glorify the name of the hall?
this is now called COMPETITION and not CHARITY.
our motives have all gone wrong!!
we're trying to collect as much money as we can in the name of competition, charity's now secondary.
WHY AM I DOING THIS!?!?!
it's burning all the free time i deserve to have.
SIGH.
i hate to ask people for money now.
i've came to a conclusion that people who donated doesnt donate out of goodwill or willingly. they are forced to.
it's like we just corner some poor office worker who may not be earning much and keep pestering her to donate some money(and not coins, mind you) by cooking up(actually they are not really lies) some poor man's story just so she would make a personal donation.
we would say "any amount will do" and smile smile a little hoping that her/his donation would be above $10 and leave gleefully after collecting the money or grumble if she/he doesn't upon leaving.
we had to eat terrible food at stuff canteens(not exactly THAT bad actually, exaggerating a little =X) and walk what seem like a gazillion hours(when it's actually 4/5) when i could lay myself in front of the tv and enjoy being a couch potato.
WHAT IS THIS.
okay, at least the donations we got for these two days tripled the amount the previous batch got for the Ang Mo Kio area.
this, the only thing that's consoling me right now.
enough of naggings for now and hello canvassing tml again =( 8:25 PM



moved out of hall!!
sigh, think i'm gonna miss hall, the freedom to leave my room messy, to play loud music and to talk during late nights..
i had so much barang barangs to move home, that my daddy needed to make TWO trips!!!
oh,
and i moved my fish tank home too!!
u know what? i haven't changed the water in the fish tank ever since calvin gave it to me(that's like for.. 8 months??).
and when i brought it home, daddy(i think cuz he had nothing to do and needs a new hobby) went to wash the tank and changed the water.
then he, mummy and kor went to lunch and when daddy came back home with 3 new guppies to add to the collection...
HE FOUND MY PREVIOUS FISHES FLOATING UPSIDE DOWN!!!!! =(
think it's because of the chlorinated water..
see daddy!!
i was smart not to wash my tank!!
and i think 1 new guppy just died =(
i think it's something to do with the water.. poor fishes.. =(
anyhow, one of the new guppies he bought seems pregnant.. i hope she survives through to give birth to many many babies!!!
i like to see tiny baby fishes evolve to have pretty colourful fins =)
canvassing's gonna start soon..
sigh, there goes my holidays.. =( 9:51 PM



today i woke up at 12.10pm! and i usually leave house for church at 12.25pm, which meant... i had only 15 min to wash and dress up!! that wasn't so bad. the worst was, i found out that i was home alone! my maid had her off day, my mummy went to yoga, brother to gym, daddy to work and there i was stranded at home alone - WITHOUT HOUSE KEYS.
which again meant , i couldn't go to church cuz there was no one to lock the door!
i called mummy immediately and asked what time she's coming home and she said not so soon, so i asked if i could not lock the door thinking that it's pretty safe cuz there's security guards around and she said, "how can!!" then she passed the phone to daddy whom i supposed met her up for lunch. then daddy said "sue lynn, how can u leave the door unlocked when u want to go out?" then i said "okay, then i won't go church. " , hung up the phone and started tearing. well, i had no one to blame except for myself for leaving the house keys in hall but somehow i was upset with my parents for.. erm.. not allowing me to not lock the door? now i feel so unreasonable =X but anyway.. 3 min after i hung up the phone, daddy called. "i'm driving home now so that mummy can lock the door for u "
you must be thinking that i'm such a spoilt brat now =X
so anyway, yays!! i could go to church after all and he drove me to jln kayu to take bus too!!! =D
thanks daddy, for forsaking some of your lunch time just so to come home to lock the door for me =)

anyhow, yesterday i went to catch ironman with him! it's a nice show i would say! exciting!! so for those who loves action (and maybe violence) , it's the show for you! then we headed to kinokuniya.. i wanted to buy this book "an hour to live,an hour to love" initially but i thought it was pretty expensive for a thin book(60 pages only!) so.. the cheapskate me decided to read it there!
we settled our selves at some corner of the bookstore, and read the book together =) somehow, just a simple reading of book with him.. gave me a xing fu de gan jue... =)
oh! and i bought a tube top online!! can't wait for it to be sent! it's my first time buying clothes online and i was so kan cheong that i asked him to check for replies from that online shop when i wasn't able to use my laptop!
can't wait!!! =D 5:24 PM