i wish...
that only for today u didn't have to stayover in the army.
that only for today you'd be here.
that only for today you'd lend me your shoulders to cry on.
that only for today you'd tell me that it's going to be okay.
that only for today you'd bring me to a place where i won't have to see anyone else.
nor face anyone.
nor answer to anyone.
that only for today you'd bring me to some place i could hide.
i could sob.
so loudly that even the nearest person can't hear.
some place that doesn't remind me of reality.
that only for today you'd buy me french fries.
and i'll eat it all forgetting and not feeling guilty about my diet plan.
i'm not lamenting at the fact that you can't be here.
because i know you'd sprint here if you could.
but you're the first person i thought of.
the only person i need now.
this is how great an impact u made in my life.
i will be better, in time.
i really hope i can get over it as soon as possible.
then i can better concentrate on my studies.
and on the better things in life.
god, please help me to move on.. 6:14 PM