my girlfriend's a band geeek!! hahaha

me

9:10 PM





" I know some people search the world,
to find something like what we have.. "
=) 4:33 PM



i was so bored... so... TADA!!

59 words

Speedtest

i hit my record high!!
think ever since i got into computing, i'm typing much faster =S 6:34 PM



I DIDN'T MANAGE TO FINISH MY PAPER TODAY!!! =( =( =(

i called him straight after my paper and here it goes.
me : *screams* i didn't finish my paper!!!
him : huh, u can do ah?

yes, it's him, my BOYFRIEND. hahas

anyway.. last saturday's 2 papers, 1102 + perfume and cosmetics(P&C) were terrible.
i didn't really study for P&C and went in with a mind to S/U it BUT it turned out even worse than expected. now i just hope not to fail =(
and 1102.. okay, lets not talk about it else i'll just rattle on and on and not know where to stop.

anyway.. the only good thing thats going to happen??
I'M GOING HOME TODAY!!! =D
no more maggie mee for lunch!!
air-con when i sleep!! (the weather has been immensely terrible these days)
bolster to hug!!
and i get to see mummy and daddy everyday!! =)
oh and in case i forgot to mention, i'll be closer(in proximity) to him!!! =D
daddy's coming to pick me up later =)
but he can only come quite late cuz he has to head home from work, shower, have dinner, then drive here..
which means.. i may not be able to go for prata supper with him =(
oh well! home SWEEEEEEET home!!! =D

oh and my daddy's so sweet(as usual)
me: daddy can u come fetch me home today? í'll be staying home till next monday..
daddy: can.. but i'll be quite late u noe..
me : okay!! anyway i need time to pack! but.. is it okay for u? cuz u have to rush here and there..
daddy : it's not a problem.. i'd rather have you home than in hall, then i can see u everyday

my daddy's so sweet right??
he's been exceptionally sweet ever since i moved to hall.. when he's off on weekdays, he calls and comes all the way to my hall to bring me out for lunch/dinner cuz he knows that i get sick of hall food =X
oh and mummy calls me to go shopping with her on saturdays(as along as my daddy's working)! =) =)

*i didn't get the embroidery tunic dress(mentioned in the previous post) in the end =( 8:02 PM



I LOVE THIS (click here and scroll all the way down) EMBROIDERY TUNIC DRESS!!!!

there's only one piece for the white,
and i have to comment really soon if i want it.

but,
i need to save money +
i think it might be too short

=( =( =(

10:33 PM



yesterday,

1 : his specially baked heartshaped cookies in the nicely decorated air-tight bottle

2 : the boy and girl shaped cookies (whose both, right hands are broken =X)

3 : famous amos chocolate chip and macademia cookies!!

all to accompany me through the hours(i hope) of study, study and study!!

oh, and not to forget,

THE BILL. (=S)

notice the thickness of the boy and girl cookies, it was on purpose!! but he claims that he had more non-chocolate dough leftover =X

anyway, i know i've repeated so many times in my blog till you've gotten sick of it...

but...............

HE'S REALLY SO SWEEEET!!!

=) =) =) =)

oh, and he bought the famous amos cuz he thinks that the ones he baked ain't that nice, but as a matter of fact, THEY ARE!! REALLY! =)

and they were a thousand times better than the ones i baked for 18/05 during valentine's day which he remembers and keeps teasing me about how hard(and awful, but he just couldn't bare to say it =P) they were!

hahas!!

after that he drove me out to get my bubble tea , then it was back to hall to study =(

he keeps bringing surprises into my life.. that i wonder how dull my life would be without him..

okay, study time.

8:54 AM



MY BOYFRIEND SAYS I'M FAT =(
MY BOYFRIEND HINTED THAT I'M A BIMBO =( =(
MY BOYFRIEND SAYS THAT HE DOESN'T WANT TO EAT ANY COOKIES I BAKE =( =( =(


BUT HE DOESN'T MIND ANY OF
THE ABOVE =)=)=)=)=) (written by him)
>> "like real =P" 11:23 PM



was talking to tim online (when he was doing some army duty =S) and he's taking his driving(practical) test soon!! so here it goes!

..............

Housemusic says:
haha ok if i pass my test im gonna give u a call and youre gonna give me a treat to congratulate me!!! hahah

[sUeLyNn] says:
more like you're gonna give me a treat cuz i'm helping u celebrate!

[sUeLyNn] says:
hahas!

Housemusic says:
THIRD MAY OK

Housemusic says:
haha

[sUeLyNn] says:
YES

Housemusic says:
eh eh ive got a plan

Housemusic says:
if i pass i'll treat you

Housemusic says:
if i fail u treat me hahaha

[sUeLyNn] says:
okay

[sUeLyNn] says:
fine

Housemusic says:
dont try n escape treating me hahahaha

[sUeLyNn] says:
oh wait... and u make sure u DRIVE SAFELY AND SLOWLY WHEN WE'RE GOING FOR SUPPER. I DON'T WANNA DIE YOUNG

[sUeLyNn] says:
hahaas

Housemusic says:
hahaha i'll make sure the safety belts are working. thats all i can promise

[sUeLyNn] says:
oh man

[sUeLyNn] says:
wait

[sUeLyNn] says:
prepare a helmet for me + protective gears too

Housemusic says:
hahaha sure thing

[sUeLyNn] says:
hahahahs

Housemusic says:
or you could just hide in the boot

[sUeLyNn] says:
EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Housemusic says:
wiht styrofoam bits

tim's SO KIND.
haahahs! anyway, it's been a while since i talked to him.. he's always such a fun person to be with =D
now i wonder when i'm gonna book my driving test =X 7:06 PM



i miss him =(
it must be the rain and accompanying cold weather =(
study please. 10:17 AM



chatting with amos on msn is stress-relieving! hahahs 9:28 PM



i came across this poem and thought i'd like to share..


Tomorrow Never Comes
-- By Norma Marek

If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly, and pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss, and call you back for just one more.
If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action, and play them back throughout my days
If I knew it would be the last time,
I would spare an extra minute or two,
To stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you know I do.
So, just in case tomorrow never comes, and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you, and I hope we never will forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.
So, if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day
That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear,
That you love them very much, and you'll always hold them dear.
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "thank you" or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

=) 6:19 PM

nice view huh! =D

my little gladys and pretty handphone accompanies me through thick and thin(the exam period =X)!

i've been having maggie mee for lunch for last fri, sat, yesterday and today! and the exact same flavour somemore! think i'm gonna get real sick of it soon... which means... time to buy another flavour! eating maggie mee doesn't actually mean that i'm too busy studying to go out and buy food, it's just that i'm lazy and don't wanna trouble others to get them for me =X so maggie mee's the answer to quick and convenient food for lazy people like me!

okay, it's back to webcast..

how i wish that i love watching webcasts the same way as how i love watching tv.. =(

to AJ: if you don't like what i'm blogging about or how i do things and the way i live my life, DON'T BOTHER READING THEM.
i'm tired of being affected by whatever you tag and please let my friends off. 4:57 PM



"Definitely, Maybe" was simply AMAZING.
the story line was just so nice.
It had a number of interesting twists to it which had me thinking of what's going to happen next,
who he's going to fall in love with,
who he'll marry,
and who he'll be with in the end.
Oh, and the lead actor was so charming.
and that little girl(his daughter in the show) was so witty, pretty and cute!
i love the show.
it was so so so so nice..
it's not the typical love story you've watched umpteen times in the movies,
it's something out of the box,
something refreshing.
so watch it when you have the time! =)

anyway, i met joseph at starbucks to study at about 4.15pm... read through the cosmetics portions of notes and everything was so foreign. BUT, i managed to read finish the whole stack(it's not a lot actually) of notes during that 3+hours in starbucks. the thing is, i don't think i can remember any of it when i wake up tml morning.. oh gosh. and i was telling joseph then i'm contemplating going back home this week to study cuz there are too many distractions in hall.. should i?? still thinking about it..
then we headed for dinner at 8.15 and caught the show at nine, before heading back to hall again.
All in all, the show made my night.
=)

"i kept the book all these years, cuz it's what i have left of you"
--- it was soo sweeet

oh, and i just realised that joseph is one of the rare few (yan guang too) who makes effort to book cinema tickets just so we wouldn't have to miss the show at times when we are late to buy tickets and have to change movies cuz there aren't anymore seats or really bad seats left for us! or maybe he's just lazy to queue up to buy tickets! hahas! =X and it's not only once, but like everytime we watch he does the booking! which means, i didn't have to queue with him too! hahas! okay. i'm just plain lazy.

4 more days to the start of the examinations =( 12:10 AM



went dinner with him yesterday and watched "the hottie and the nottie" starring paris hilton!



5:53 PM



went for lunch with dave todayy! this boy kinda assumed that i was going to pang seh him.. BUT.. I DIDN'T! =D
we headed to vivo's thai express after my maths tutorial! i had my phad thai while he had some curry with rice.. and.. we shared a plate of mango salad.. the salad was pretty nice! wasn't as sour as i thought it would be...
was pretty long since i last saw and talked to him.. but, he's one of the rare people in SOC whom i can comfortably chat with (dave, do u feel honoured?? hahas!)
anyway.. we talked and ate, and as usual, i have this tendency to talk and laugh so loudly that people around would look =X BUT i realised when i talked loudly, he would be talking as loudly just that my pitch is higher hence more noticeable.. hahas.. oh this reminds me of the times we were screaming so loudly at each other in the car last time!!
oh. this reminds me again, YOU(dave), please SLOW DOWN AT BENDS, SERIOUSLY. you're the fastest driver on bends(of those cars i've sat in) so far!
it's good that u no longer ride! Why?? cuz..
1. you safe petrol = save the environment
2. you save money = more lunch with sue lynn
3. you're safe and sound! = sue lynn has one more person to crap with! =)
so PLEASE don't get a bike anymore!
oh, and.. dave says that multiply should be pronounced as "mor-ti-ply" and not "mull-ti-ply"..
and thus "multi-task" should be "mor-ti-task".. really mehs?? anyway.. we spent some time crapping about it.. BUT DAVE, i think i'm still right! hahahhas!
after that, we went to giant for a short look to see if there's anything i had to get when i caught him staring at the cover-girl of "MAXIM"
hahas.. opps! did i just ruin your reputation?? =X
and dave : maybe we can have lunch soon again! and i know i still owe u pow sing! hahs! =) 5:33 PM



yesterday,
i skipped lectures,
vacuumed, cleaned, tidied my room,
did laundry,
changed bedsheets,
organised my wardrobe,
and sat in front my my computer from 7.45pm to 1am trying to solve my lab problem,
but still didn't manage to pass the last two test cases =(
during that approximately 5 hrs,
i didn't move about,
go to the toilet,
chat on msn,
sms,
talk on the phone,
blog/read blogs,
listen to music.
only short chats with kuma and andee when they came up.
AND
i still didn't manage to pass the last 2 test cases.
oh gosh
and i still call myself a computing student!
the thing is,
i don't think many people found this week's lab hard.
guess most people could pass all the test cases =(
guess that's why i was pretty disappointed with myself.
actually,
i find programming interesting..
BUT
i just don't have enough brains and patience to accomplish whatever i want to do i guess
oh well,
i'll just have to work harder than normal people,
stop being lazy,
and stop procrastinating.
oh, and one thing about coursemarker.
why can't they just give us all the test cases instead of 8 out of 10!
it's like offering a tree branch to a drowning person and not pulling him out of the water =S
well.. if they did provide the last 2 test cases,
i would have tried to find out what's wrong with my program and tried harder to get the full marks(i wish)!
oh well,
it's OVER.
NO.MORE.PROGRAMMING.THIS.SEM.
hopefully.. and i mean seriously hopefully..
i'll pass my cs1102, and get over with it!
then i won't have to suffer again next sem.
and this brings me to the point,
I.NEED.TO.START.STUDYING.
oh, and i forgot to mention,
i watched death note and death note 2 on the internet yesterday too!=P
during the times when i was supposed to be in lectures =X
they were interesting!!
i pretty liked their plots,
especially the parts where L and Light were always trying to outsmart each other.
and i must say that they're really intelligent.
they think way far and ahead,
of what the other party is going to do,
or how he's going to execute the next plan.
nice!
i wanted to watch the part 3 online but couldn't find it and decided that it was enough for the day(to make myself feel less guilty for skipping lectures =X)
okay, and i'm NOT going to skip lectures today! =D
i think this blog is getting boring without any pictures.
will place some pictures after exams! =) 9:02 AM



i was dreading the meeting since last friday..
well.. at least everything's over..
i'll put a FULLSTOP. to it!
i'll learn my lesson and move on!
yes i will.

he's coming down soon to pick me up for supper.
i'm seriously fat.
i need to go on a diet or i'll soon be obese.
as usual, i'm going to look really bad from my swollen/red eyes, puffy cheeks and messy hair.
and because of the irritation in my right eye, i'll have to wear specs =(
hope he doesn't get a shock when he sees me. =X
or maybe he's already used to this look of mine.
opps! =X
to him : sorry that your girlfriend gets uglier overtime =X

I.NEED.TO.GO.ON.A.DIET. 11:26 PM



SATURDAY

daddy came to pick me up from hall after my practical exam! mummy, him and i then headed to yum cha at chinatown for dim sum lunch before heading to ang mo kio to choose curtains for my room and get groceries for the next few weeks in hall.. exams' starting and i don't think i'll be going home that often, so the groceries will have to last me for at least 3 weeks!
after all the shopping for necessities at amk hub, we headed home and not long after, out for dinner again. we went to chomp chomp at serangoon gardens! was craving for food there so daddy brought us there for dinner! thanks daddy! =D
after dinner, i watched tv, lazed around and waited for him to come pick me up!
that night was a dress-down night organised by him!
apparently we were supposed to dress in a very unglam fashion =X
so there he was in a collared casual tee with his white OCS pants, while i wore an orange tee from open house + aj fbts + ugly specs + messy hair. and he said he looked worse... where got!!
so according to his itinery, our first stop was to the prata place at mandai.. BUT it closed by the time we reached (it closes at 12am and we reached at 11.55pm =( ).. so we headed to the one at casuarina.. BUT.. it was closed too =( nd finally, it was back to the 24 hours jalan kayu prata! we had a kosong each and shared a strawberry prata.. the ones at the prata place still tastes much better =( oh well!
the 2nd stop was the seletar dam! we had to digest the prata so he drove us there for a stroll! that place is really nice i tell you! though the drive to the dam was dark, misty and scary, the dam was soooo nice and it feels like some exclusive place cuz not many knows about it! we've been there once before and it was more windy and had lesser people the previous time.. so we walked, talked and when the food went down a little, we headed to the 3rd stop!
durians!!
my favourite!! =D
he brought us to geylang using his friend's super cool handphone navigator! it not only shows you the route to take, it tells you things like "after 400m, turn left" and "turn left here"! so cool right!
there were a few durian stalls and we choose the further end one.. but according to my daddy, we didn't know how to buy durians.. i was telling him that we bought a small durian that only had 3 pieces in it and cost $18 and he said "so expensive??" hahas.. except for the part that the durian shell had worms in it(yikes! was really gross!), the fruit itself was not bad! =)
and i ate 2 =X
he kept looking at me eat the 2nd durian, i think he just wanted to see how unglam i can be! =X
i've officially added durian into the list of food items not to be eaten in front of guys! =S
then he drove us to some alley to see some scenes(in geylang, so maybe u could make a guess what we went to check out!) i haven't seen before.. it was indeed an eye-opener.. quite scary though!
and finally, we headed home! wished i could have more time with him =(

SUNDAY

went for brunch - pow sing chicken rice, with family and headed to church!
but before church, it told daddy about the seletar dam that he brought me to and daddy decided to check that place out too!
i think the whole place looks better in the morning.. it looked so serene, green and peaceful.. if i have the money, i think i'd like to stay in one of those colonial looking bungalows there next time!
and i realised just this morning that i've been to the country club overlooking the dam before! was during tim's birthday party which was held at the country club 3/4 years back i think, when he brought me to look at the golf course overlooking the dam! i could still remember how beautiful it looked from there!
daddy drove around to explore the area a little then sent carmen and i to the bus-stop to head to church!
after church we had steamboat dinner( with kor as well! =D) together with some of my favourite dishes at home before daddy sent me back to hall again =( nothing beats home-cooked food with the whole family sitting together having dinner!
i'm starting to miss home again =(

"i'll never know how much it costs,
to see my sins upon that cross" 10:30 PM



He was such a sweetheart!
he left camp early this morning,
and appeared at my door
in his suave army uniform and boots,
with breakfast from macdonalds,
and not to forget the 90 calories breakfast bar! =)
BUT
he saw how horrible i looked,
in my unglam sleepwear,
messy hair,
and puffy eyes.
he saw how messy and dirty my room was =(
he watched me do my hair,
helped me pack my bag,
and had to rush back to camp again,
while i left for lecture =(
anyhow,
he was just so sweeet =)
and he made my day!
loves! =D 3:50 PM



just got back from prata with calvin.
feeling much better now..
thanks so much calvin, for going to supper so far away(well, not exactly that far but we had to walk quite a distance =X) with me!
you helped me to keep my mind of it for that while.
and i haven't laughed that much and that loudly for some time.
ya, unglam i know, but thank you!
and though the prata doesn't taste as nice as the one from the prata place,
you were great company =)
oh, and i got to drink my bubble tea too =)
these are what you call comfort food.
food that are sinful but makes you feel better, somehow.
oh, and really sorry that you had to see 'that'..
still feeling quite bad about it =X
but it was quite funny how we became in the same boat after that.. hahs.
and, you should thank me for not allowing you to get alcohol!
it's bad for health!
see! what a great friend you've got who's concerned about your health.. hahs
yep, we should go for supper more often and crap and catch up with each other..
hopefully we won't be consoling each other the next time, but rather, share stories of joy!
oh, and gossips too! considering how phantom i've became, you're to keep me updated okay??
and hopefully you'll be able to successfully wake me up in the morning later for breakfast!
i'll TRY to wake up lars.. BUT in the event i don't.. erm.. sorry!! =X
oh, we should both STOP thinking so much like how we agreed to.
else... we'll bian cheng wu gui!
hahahs.
I. WILL. STOP. THINKING. ABOUT. IT. 1:49 AM



i wish...
that only for today u didn't have to stayover in the army.
that only for today you'd be here.
that only for today you'd lend me your shoulders to cry on.
that only for today you'd tell me that it's going to be okay.
that only for today you'd bring me to a place where i won't have to see anyone else.
nor face anyone.
nor answer to anyone.
that only for today you'd bring me to some place i could hide.
i could sob.
so loudly that even the nearest person can't hear.
some place that doesn't remind me of reality.
that only for today you'd buy me french fries.
and i'll eat it all forgetting and not feeling guilty about my diet plan.
i'm not lamenting at the fact that you can't be here.
because i know you'd sprint here if you could.
but you're the first person i thought of.
the only person i need now.
this is how great an impact u made in my life.
i will be better, in time.
i really hope i can get over it as soon as possible.
then i can better concentrate on my studies.
and on the better things in life.
god, please help me to move on.. 6:14 PM



HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSEPH!! =D
you know what?
it was such a coincidence that keith and gang bought the EXACT same cake for joseph as the one i bought! so he had to eat and blow candles of the same cake twice! hahas! but the cake was not bad=) hoped you liked it joseph! oh, and.. i know i wrote it in the note already.. but.. thanks for being my friend! =)

and.. special thanks to ce ying for leaving chocolates at my door just so to cheer me up, and calvin, who talked to me and sent me the email.. thank you!

i met him today!! =D thought i wouldn't be able to but this boy skipped some army test just to meet me despite me trying to persuade him not to for almost an hour last night!
anyhow, he's just sweeeet =)
and... he helped me carry joseph's cake the whole time! (i had to write this cuz he forced me to =X)
hahas!

i met mummy today for a hair cut and went for eye-brow waxing.. yes, i know i'm vain.. hahas!
and he did not realise that i cut my hair UNTIL i told him!! =( but ya, i guess my hair style/length didn't change much except that it's lighter.. my hair grows and gets thick so fast that it becomes a hassle to go for frequent haircuts to ensure that it doesn't get heavy, frizzy and awful again!

i've got a meeting at 8am tomorrow and havent done my part yet.. =(
and i so look forward to going home this weekend! i miss mummy and daddy and my brother's in reservist =( 11:35 PM



we finally handed up our perfume and cosmetics project yesterday! finally! =)
this means one less thing to worry about!
one and a half week more to study break and exams commences!
gosh.. it's all happening so fast...
like my friend was saying.. "i haven't learnt anything and it's time for exams!"
perhaps it only applies for people like us who slack a lot..
opps =X
i'm so going to start my study plan.. next week!
when that thing is all settled, i WILL concentrate on my studies..
HOPEFULLY... i'll do better this sem..
actually.. i just plan to pass my cs1102.. =X that's my main concern cuz i don't think i'd like to do it and continue suffering in it next sem! that module is so hard, time-consuming, depression-causing and brain-wrecking i tell you! so god bless me!
and after the sem, i'll try to find a job to replenish my about to be depleted bank account, and at the same time be involved in hall holiday committees
actually i'm not as involved in hall as people outside may think..
i join enough activities to keep me in hall for the following year cuz my home is so far away and travelling would be a hassle..
nevertheless, i enjoy hall stay cuz the people there are fun, nice and really helpful.. not to forget, i get to enjoy the privacy that i don't get when i'm home..
at home, i share a room with my cousin.. not that it's bad.. just that i would appreciate some personal space at times.. so.. hall's the answer to it cuz i get to have my own(though pretty small) room! =D
okayy! that's all for now.. going to my block's senior's farewell(only for half an hour i think =X)..
hahas!
oh and i guess i won't be able to see him this week =( 9:13 PM



nothing much..
met him two days in a row,
took me for a car ride yesterday..
went to west coast park's macdonalds drive-thru,
to get my iced milo first.
i like drive thrus,
don't know why, hahs.
i like car rides too,
especially during late nights.
we listen to our favourite songs,
talk and no one else can hear,
look at passing vehicles,
find out new hunts,
hold hands,
at times,
wind down windows,
blast music,
feel the wind,
and still be safe,
enclosed,
protected,
in the car.
went to kent ridge park,
then mount faber.
it feels nice,
overlooking the waters,
buildings,
vehicles,
and people as small as ants..
it feels like everything's in order,
that everything's calm.
maybe cuz it's late at night,
and everyone's home,
sound asleep.
oh no,
i'm missing him already.
he's been around me so much,
that it feels weird not seeing him today..
guess i should cease being so dependant,
so sticky,
to him.
went to church,
god spoke through miraculous ways..
after crying at his altar,
confessing my sins(yes, i know i do have many sins),
rededicating my life to him,
somehow i feel more in peace..
i miss home,
but i don't dare to tell daddy about 'it',
so i won't know how not to feel guilty when i'm home..
but i will tell him,
when everything is settled..
to people who have been concerned,
who asked,
who encouraged,
who told me that everything's going to be alright,
thank you!
i'll tide through all these,
bravely,
like a woMAN. =)

p.s edmund: thanks for taking time to help me do up the bottle this morning!! 9:18 PM



i don't know why but i just can't stop thinking about it
everytime i'm alone,
when it rains,
or when i listen to some emo song,
i'll start tearing..
i wish i wasn't that dumb,
that i didn't assume that much,
that i wasn't that careless,
that i took more responsibility in it..
it's like how you often regret,
about how you dislike and not listen to your grandma's nagging only after she passes away,
about how you didn't study for exams only after you failed,
about how you don't cherish life only after you know that your days are numbered..
though we know,
through experiences of our own or others,
that we should live everyday to the fullest,
to live a life without regrets,
we can't help doing things that somehow makes us regret,
and it pains,
it hurts,
so much...
people might say, "just take it as a lesson learnt"
but it's a really huge lesson,
that it's suffocating me..
things will get better,
i hope.. 7:45 PM



too many things happened in just one week..
like people having cancer would ask god,
"why me?"
i so want to ask god too..
but i know,
that god has his reasons..
maybe these trials are for me to learn some lessons,
be stronger,
and live everyday for it is.
and not to worry,
for tomorrow has its own worries..
was it because i didn't go to church last sunday,
or was it because i don't read the bible everyday
that god didn't bless me this week
i know however
that god's grace is sufficient
to pull me through all these

him : thank you for being there to hear my whinings, sobs, and everything else
SL peeps : i'm sorry, really..
eric : thanks so much for standing up for me..
AJ : thanks for giving me a chance to reflect 12:50 AM